My Sweetness

I'm not a pretty fool

REMINGTON P.O.V

''REMINGTON WAKE THE FUCK UP!'' i heard my younger brother emerson yell. i groaned
''what do you want its 5 in the morning!".  "just get up and get dressed I'm taking you somewhere today"emerson said. " i dont want to go anywhere..." I said rolling back over. "just please trust me you will have fun i promise" emerson said. " GODDAMN IT EMERSON GET THE FUCK OUT ITS 5 IN THE MORNING I DONT WANT TO GO ANYWHERE WHY CAN YOU UNDERSTAND THAT!" i said  angrily. " YOU KNOW WHAT REMINGTON FUCK YOU " emerson said slamming my door. I started to get up to go after him because i did feel bad about the way ive acted lately and expecially today. all he was trying to do was be nice to me and i fucked it up like i fuck up everything. ive been depressed ever since high school really. but here lately its gotten worst, it all started when my girlfriend of 4 years broke up with me her name is tawnie...  tawnie Jaclyn she was the love of my life. i wanted to marry her even but she broke it off. and just pretened our relationship meant nothing. it really hurt me ive done many things trying to get over her ive tried sleeping around with other girls to drugs and alchol none of it can make the pain go away. i feel like my life will be like this till the day i die. sad and gloomy. but the only reason I'm staying strong is for my two brothers and my amazing fans. without them i dont have a reason for living music is my passion i feel like i was born to play music and to make others happy. its just something i love. its something i can always trust and know that it will be there. music is my happy place. but here often i dont even feel like doing that i dont feel like doing anything to be honest. i just want to sit in my room eat Nutella and watch Netflix. and that sounds like an everyday routine to me.
*RING* i looked over to see emerson was calling i answered. "hello" i said. " listen rem i know you loved tawnie but you need to get over her I'm sorry for getting pissed earlier i understand i couldn't deal with losing shy either just please get up and get dressed and meet me in the driveway in 30 min" emerson said. "I'm sorry too i shouldn't of yelled at you the way i did you had every right to be pissed and give me 40 min and we will call it a deal.'' i said kind of chuckling something i haven't done in awhile. " okay 40 min it is." emerson said hanging up the phone. for some reason i feel like today is going to be a day i wont forget and i dont know if that's a bad thing or a good thing. by the time i got out of my bed took a shower , got dressed, brushed my teeth and fixed my hair it was time to go. so i walked outside and saw emerson and Sebastian sitting in a car in my driveway. and my only thought was * todays the day things are going to be looking up for me* but little did i know i meant that in a litteral way.