My Sweetness

don't take me for a fool

CHARLOTTES P.O.V

As I put in my earphones and went back into hell (aka my work) I heard my boss yell "CHARLOTTE FOR THE LAST TIME TAKE OUT THOSE DAMN HEADPHONES!" sometimes i just wanna quit this job and just runaway from my problems but I dont think ill ever find happieness ever since i was born my life has had nothing but complications. all startin with my parents. ever since i was born my mom and dad fought everynight because we couldnt afford to pay the bills because my dad had an addiction with gambling and my mom never was home because she was addicted to sleeping with other men besides her HUSBAND. so when my dad figured out about all the cheating he turned to alchol and instead of taking it out on my mom or just simpily talking it out he physically , mentally and , sexually abused me and my big sister ashlee. i still remeber the late nights i would stay up just waiting for him to walk in that door he came in our room everynight around the same time and when he finally did come through that door you had it there was no escape you were done for. he would aways say when he came through the door " guess whos home" and those word they still get stuck in my head even now 22 years later. but that wasn't even the worst of it. my school life wasn't that easy either infact it wasn't easy at all. I got bullied for the way I looked all the time they called me a pig, a fattass , ugly , stupid , worthless. so I became anorexic went from a size 9 to a size 00. nut nothing I done to myself was good enough I was always fat to them no matter what I did so the bullying go worse the beatings started happening more often so I tried killing myself. i went to the store bought pills and swallowed a handful and the next thing i know i woke up in a hospital bed with my older sister ashlee standing next to me. ive never been more happy to see her in  my life. so unfourtantly i had to go back to school 1 week later and the bullying continued until i met this girl named anna she was my bestfriend she helped me through everything i still remember the late night chats we would have , and the concerts we went too. anna was truly an amzing person in my life. i still have nightmares about all the beatings up until the age of 19 and thats when i decided... it was time to move away , i had to leave that neighborhood i had to leave that state i just had to get away. so i saved up the money and 19 year old me moved to California. and this is when things were supposed to get better for me but little did i know you can never runaway from all your problems.