The Spaces Between Us

Chapter 2 - Can you come back?

I'm drowning.

No really.

I'm drowning.

I'm drowning in my own tears. Isn't that sad. I've been sitting in this janitors closet for more than an hour. Just crying. Actually I don't think I'm going to have anymore tears after this episode.

Oh well, here they come again. I can't believe she doesn't remember me. I should be the one in the hospital bed. I don't know what went through her mind to push me out of the way. I was the stupid one who drove Sofia away and ran out on the road; call me crazy. I know. Speaking of my sister, I should have called her ages ago. Here I go, being selfish again.

I picked up my phone next to me and dialled her number. On the second ring she picked up. "Sofia are you okay?"

"Yeah, Nick picked me up. I was so stupid. I'm sorry for what I did Dani." Why does she think it's her fault?

"Why do you think its your fault? Its not." At this point I was just fed up. I wasn't gonna get out of this mess by myself. I needed help. I'm suffering and I have absolutely no way of getting out of this hole I have dug.

"Sofia? I need to go I'll call you later okay?" I sighed when she said okay and hung up. I did something that I haven't done in a while.

I prayed. Yes, prayed.

It's been a while and so I'm a little rusty. Last time I prayed I was probably 3 or 4 years old. A sincere prayer that is. After that I just stopped, probably because I stopped believing that God can actually become my knight in shining amour. As, well, you know.

After the prayer, well after I was rudely interrupted by the janitor knocking loudly on the door and commanding that I get out, I went to go see Maddie who was in the hallway on the phone. "Madison?"

"Yeah she went off, I don't know where she went mom." She continued to talk on the phone. "Madison!" I snapped to get her attention. She turned around to face me.

"I'll call you back mom." She hung up and glared at me. She hit me on the arm. "Ow! What was that for?!" I exclaimed. "For running away. We are in another ward of the hospital Daniella!" She sighed in frustration. "Something could have happened to you."

Tears pricked her waterline. Why do I always disappoint people? I hugged her close to me. "Look it's okay Mads I'm fine."

She nodded. "Yeah, you're right. Let's go back. Visiting times are over soon."

"Maddie?" We had our arms linked, walking back to Demi's room to say goodbye. Well for Madison to say goodbye. "Humm?" She replied.

"Do you think she'll ever remember me?"

"I'm not sure Dani. Wait it out."

I've done a lot of waiting. It has mentally and physically tired me out.

Wait it out.

I might be waiting for an eternity.