Dark minds attract

Because hes did it before

"So he was raping her and touching you" I nod "Star was 15 at the time Stars mom was a stripper before she got deported and her moms boyfriend had already been sexually abusing her but this time she new if she kept her mouth closed he's buy her stuff which he did but he didn't really start touching me until Star got pregnant"

I say "so hopes his baby" I shake my head "she's Tres Scott couldn't have kids that's why they had foster kids" I say "Star really did love that boy Scott used to beat her so bad because texting him or hanging out with him he be so mad and she just didn't leave him alone I don't think she could star was the best back thing since we were roommates she had took me under her wing I used to skip school with her and hag out at Tre house even though I was in middle school and they were in high school Tre was so nice to me he and Dre and Jordan treated me like family in a kinda way we were all happy at that time we all came from shit and didn't have any family so we made our own and we were happy for a while up until I fucked it up"

I say rolling up again since I was done the other one "want made you tell was it be-" I shake my head "it wasn't because he started touching me after star had the baby it was because he was still raping Star he was still really upset she had gotten pregnant by Tre he never liked him Dre said it was because he new he couldn't beat him and I believed that to be true but he had started coming home drunk threatening Star she had to start locking her door because he would come in and start beating on her I would have to guard the door and get knocked out the first couple of times after a while you get use it but he started telling star she couldn't leave the house and I just had this bad feeling in my heart and i new he was going to do something to her and Hope I just felt it so I didn't go to school that morning I went to Tre and told him everything so he'd help her he just told me to make sure the back door was locked and the front door wasn't I did want he asked and I told myself I'd never do it again" I say by time I was done I was done rolling mine and hers blunt we light up "that's a lot"

I nod "Tre go so hard for his family because his mom kicked him and Dre out for a dude who started beating on her I hadn't realized him saying he'd kill for his family actually applied to me as well I never had someone Constant in my life not even my caseworker so I never truly knew want family and loyalty was until I meet him"

"Why you say that"

"Because he killed that man that night" I say

"I don't know want I thought he was going to I guess beat him up or take star and hope and run away to never land I dont know why"I say " but he deserve it though"

I nod "I still feel guilty me and star both do we both dealt with it in different ways that's why we let her do want she did star always said she wanted a family and I did take that a way from her so when she was drunk and said those things to me years ago after Tre got sentenced it hurt me deep I fucked up every thing I and everyone else knew it because of that i went into this dark place where I decided I wanted to die"

I say I looked at Alexia and nodded "yeah it gets crazier anyway I started cutting after a while I had an Epiphany and realized I was here for something to do something and I realized I wanted to do something's before I died looking back on that faze it was real stupid of me but I needed it to happen just so I can appreciate things more"

"oh yeah when you first came to our school why did you let Xavier spread those rumors about you if it wasn't true"

I shrugged "during that dying faze in my life I realized shit is way bigger in high school may not seem like it but it is and high school is just a dumb faze in all our lives I'm way bigger than that bullshit in school I'm a whore today slut tomorrow and I was a hoe yesterday but I'll be saved on Sunday at church while all the way in Africa babies are starving looking like skeletons" I say Alexia just looks at me "true shit didn't think of it like that"