A Part of Me

The Ultimatum

     A part of me really hated the fact that I was going through this , but I couldn't blame no one but myself. I had just gotten back to my hotel room, this lonely room when I now resided. I felt just like this room ... empty. My cell phone began to vibrate , I looked over at the screen to see who it could possibly be because I honestly haven't really in the mood to converse with anyone.

" Hi sweetheart " I adjusted my tone of voice for my daughter , I didn't want her to hear the sorrow in my voice.

" Hi Mama , Mommy said we were going out for dinner tonight. Can I wear my favorite pink dress ? Please oh please mama ! " she pleaded with me , she loved that dress. Even though it really wasn't fit for dinner , my little princess always got her way.

" Sure baby , tell Michelle to help you get ready. "

" Okay , Love you mama see you soon "

" Love you more "

" Here mommy " I could hear Josephine talking to her mother giggling because she just won me over. I'm sure Alex told her she couldn't wear the dress that's why she called.

" Always have to be the good guy " Alex chuckled on the phone.

" You know she always gets me " a warm smile came across my face , it was good test see that me and Alex could still be cordial adults , I mean besides we did have a daughter together and I would never do anything to destroy Josephine's happiness.

" What time do you think you will be arriving ? "

I looked over at the clock , it read 6:45pm. It would only take me a few mins to get ready plus I planned on getting dress at the house. " I should be there by 7:30 , I'll get dressed there if that's okay with you ? " I got silent awaiting Alex response.

" That's fine , is there anything in particular you want to wear ? Because I could get it out and ready for you. "

" Uh not really , just anything comfortable "

" Okay , see you when you arrive "

I hung up the phone and got myself up off the floor and grabbed my things to head out the door.

Dinner went well , we all made our way back to the house. I help carry Josephine inside and tucked her in bed, oh how I will miss these things. I walked back down to the kitchen where Alex was putting away leftovers. I took a seat at the counter.

" Do you want anything to drink ? " She asked me  putting the last of the stuff in the fridge.

" Sure "

" Red or white ? "

" White " she pour two glasses of wine and took a seat across from me.

" Are you okay Kerry ? Have you tried to reach out to her ? "

It had been 2 weeks since I left home and I've been trying to get up enough courage to speak to Justine but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. She has shut me out , she would even give me a chance to explain when she put me out. I've been trying to speak to her and trying to get everyone to get her to speak to me but she just wouldn't have it. " No .... I haven't and I don't know if I'm okay. I know she hates me , I know you both do and you guys have every right too but I just want to tell her how I feel and how sorry I am. " I put my head down because I felt the tears began to form. I didn't want Alex to see me crying , especially over another woman. Alex was stronger than I knew the facts that she stayed by my side while I was in love with another woman is beyond me. I could never imagine how it feels for her to see my shed tears over another woman. I'm her wife , we made vows and I broke them. I could never forgive myself for what I've done to either one of these woman and for tearing my family apart.