Dear Lost Love

Dear lost love #1

02/05/09

Dear lost love,

I didn't want to be on earth anymore and you came along and showed me everything life had to offer me. You smoke various items just to escape your troubles and I am going to show you that as long as you have me, you wouldn't need to get high to be happy. The serendipity of two people, so different yet so alike coming together and changing each other's lives, was one in a million. The timing was perfect. Although this does not mean I am not scared. I am scared of drowning in the depths of your brown eyes, but I am also scared that if I do not jump in the deep end you will slip away from me like sand in between my toes. I am scared of you setting my soul on fire but I am also scared that if you don't I will slowly freeze from the inside out, because it has been so long since I have been held by someone with warm hands. I am afraid to love you, but I am even more afraid to lose you, and to do one will prevent the other from happening for some time. I am scared of being struck by the lightning in your fingertips. I am scared of being blown away by the wind your words produce. I am scared of death because of you. I am scared of everything and nothing at the same time all because of you. You make my hands shake with uncertainty but you make my blood rush and my heart pound against my chest in the most beautiful way, because when I am with you I am convinced I am okay, although I am not sure you feel the same. I am scared I am scared I am so very scared, because it is you who holds my heart in their hands, and it is you who sometimes trips, and it is not me who decides when I am to be broken. I am scared because you have the power to give me everything and take it all away at the same time.