Erratic Shiz (COMPLETED)

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I'm currently sitting in my room listening to Helena by MCR

I hope everyone's doing good.
I love you all and your all great and special you need to remember that everyday there is someone to love you, I love you all.

There's nothing really big in my life I guess you could say.

My best friend started work Sunday.
She'll be sunburned which sucks for her...

I've kinda lost so many people recently it almost hurts me again.

But when you've been abandoned someone always tries to come to your rescue sometimes they stick around and sometimes they don't.

I won't lie when I say I've been sleeping to escape everything.

I considered cutting myself again but I didn't I slept.

I've had nightmares every night every day no nights skip it's horrible.

Half of the time I wake up crying.

I'm scared of everything.

Schools over I'm off to highschool in August.

I don't know if I'll keep writing by the time HS comes around if I should go to 200 chapters again and make a third book or actually write books.

Life sucks.

Actually I'm losing a lot of people.
Still got my boyfriend.
And my best friend I know she'll say that she'll always be there but that doesn't stop me from being terrified of losing her.

T is a couple of states away it should be good for him to clear his head.

None the less I'm gonna keep my head up fake a smile and move on.

I just want to say I believe in all of you so much your some of the nicest people in the world. And no matter what you've done I believe there is a little bit of good in everyone.

I love you all so much
Bye loves❤💙