Just another story

Chapter 4

~unedited~

( I am sorry)

April's POV

"Wait! April come back!" I turned to see Christian running towards me. I turned around trying to ignore but I knew it wouldn't work.

"Please just listen." He looked at me with his hazel eyes that I could never stop looking at.

"Ever since we became friends in high school, I knew right from the start you except me for who I am. Yeah I am a joker and everything but I never really people would except me for my true side. You came into my life and changed it forever. You wanna know why? Not only do you smile for me everyday but you there for me and your the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my life. Since our friendship got closer, the only thing I could do was smile because I knew you were right there beside me."

I knew he was telling the truth.

I know that look in his hazel brown eyes.

He wanted to be loved.

I looked at him straight in the eye because that must have been the most nicest thing someone has said to me in my exsisting life time. I always thought I was the ugliest girl in the world because nobody wanted to be my friend.

( I know it sounds weird but it's true)

I always thought about killing myself but ever since I saw him......

I thought there was a chance for me.

"Christian. Listen to me. You don't understand how hard it is to say this but it's not going to work, I can't let it be this way. It is way to early and your sister won't evenlike the idea of us being more than just friends. I can't do this." I said in a soft voice almost into tears.

Christian's POV

I just felt like a ton of bricksfellon me once again. I am not loved for who I am and will never be. I felt like crying until my death because the only person I loved the most rejected me.

She didn't love me for who I am.

The same thing my parents did to me.

Maybe it's time to give up.

This was a game that I just lost and will loose forever.

Aprils POV

" ummmm.....guys what the hell are you guys doing?! Stopping for drugs? Taking a make out break?! I have extra gas in the car, you could've asked me. Why didn't you ask for some!?" Maddy was furious.

Well considering you didn't have a GPS in your jeep second thoughts were you really have nothing to help us.

Useless!

We started walking back to the car, filled it with gas and headed down the exact direction we came from. The long straight-lonely-only car highway back to the city.

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I was hungry, tired, annoyed, frustrated and sad.

I could probably eat myself

Kinda weird.....very

So much for getting home at 7:00 at the latest and we are still in the car. Tomorrow we have to go check where our classes are being held and meet my soccer coach so I know what the training program is like.

"Hey I am sorry-"

"Don't worry about it."

"I wasn't thinking and your right. It won't work."

I didn't reply because I felt like crying.

And I did

Felt like the worst person in the world

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"April? Wake up were home now. Guess what? There is food!" He whispered shaking me.

Finally

I can sleep in my own room and in my own bed without disruptions.

I ignored Christian, ran to the door, opened it and went straight to my room. I flopped on my bed and started to cry.

Again.

Nobody has told me I was pretty before and I think Christian would be the last

I wanted him

He wanted me

But I pushed him away and told him he wasn't good enough for me,

Essentially

He waits for me by my door in the morning.

Makes me laugh,

Annoys me in a great way,

Always there for me.....

But the best thing that happened was when he came into my life...

That's what changed it forever.

Christians POV

She stands beside me everyday,

She is different from the rest,

Always has a beautiful smile on her face,

And all I want is.....

Her...

But that will never happen,

As much as I wanted her.

I lost my life,

My love,

My heart...

My girl....

Sorry this is more like a 'catching feeling' chapter!

I did this for tomorrows chapter

don't worry...wait until tomorrow