Bittersweet Farewell

"Hey, how are you?" Is what I want to say

But I can't do that because you've gone away

I really thought you meant what you said to me

Turns out it was just a lie that I believed so foolishly

You said you'd be here even if years will pass

Yet your words only amount to flowers that didn't last

All those times we've spent and plans we've made,

You've forgotten them and I never should've stayed

Many times, if not everyday, I kept waiting---

For a return that I know isn't happening

I did that because I thought you were my friend

My mistake... you never considered me as one in the end

At first, I felt happy thinking that you must be doing well in reality

But you haven't told me that so now, I feel stupid, honestly...

I don't know what you're doing and I can't find you anywhere

Oh wait, you've forgotten about me so why do I even care?

I hate you, I hate you, idiot, I hate you!

You have no idea how much crap I'm going through

And the fact that I can't tell you,

Pisses me off even more too!

It's funny how tears never escaped my eyes

Even after realizing all your lies

I trusted you yet you let me down

Making my smile turn into a frown

I thought you were different from the others I've met

But boy was I wrong and what's left is regret

Silly me for trusting someone who couldn't wait

For a simple reply that was only two days late

What the heck is with this misunderstanding?

And now I can't fix it because you're missing

Just look back and see what's happening

I'm still here, but my heart is breaking...

Pathetic is the word to describe me

For still caring unnecessarily,

And for still thinking about you daily

Damn it. Get off of my mind already!

I hate how your absence is affecting me

It's annoying and it's driving me crazy

I can't think straight because you're in the way

Haunting me like a ghost everyday

That's it. I've had enough of this stupidity

I want to free myself and move on already

But that's so easy to say yet so hard to do...

Yeah, who am I kidding? I just can't forget about you

You're stuck in my heart and memory

And I can't do anything about it, apparently

I could get amnesia and forget everything entirely

But that sounds more like something from another story

I'm still heartbroken but I can't really stay bitter forever

So I'll be sweet like I was when we first met each other

Thank you for being nice and all that you've done for me

And I hope you'll meet the one who'll make you happy

If we ever meet again someday,

Memories will surely replay

But for now, I'll try to be okay

And this is farewell, by the way.

A/N:

To the boy with a name that means 'snow', this one's for you.