Only For You || H.S.

2

Freya's P.O.V.

The sunray shone brightly in the room,eluminating everything in the room.I stared at the brightly lit room, noticing every detail with my suspicious eyes, after all , I was going to spend the rest of my life here.

I turned my head slowly, staring at the man, from now on my husband.

His plump heart-shaped lips parted a little, allowing him to breathe with his opened mouth as well.His loose short hair sticking up, shining in the sunlight. How the hell can he sleep through this bright lights?

I sighed as I stared at him, remembering last night's events.

I remained frozen on the bed, waiting for the worst to come. I don't love him. I don't know him. I can't lose my virginity to him. I can't.

The door of the room's creaked open, allowing him to peek inside the room, as I squished my clothing tightly in fear.

The sound of the door locking made me to look at him in fear, as I saw him slowly approaching me.

I gulped as he took the seat beside me on the bed.

I was shaking.

He was now staring at me,I can feel it.

I peeked at him through my eyelashes , as he released a sigh.

Suddenly he stood up, and started to go towards the closet, as he slided open the door of the walk-in closet and after entering there, shut the door.

What now? Will he come out naked and do it?

Surely it was our wedding night but I can't.

I can't forget him.

My chains of thoughts broke as the closet's door opened, revealing him .

He was in a basketball shorts and some simple T-shirt.

I slowly released a sigh seeing that at least he wasn't naked.

He made his way towards me as I gulped again.

He took the space next to me and lied down,covering himself with duvets and I internally released my long-held breathe.

"You can go change and sleep if you want. Your clothes are in there too."

I nodded but soon realised he couldn't see me as he was facing his back towards me.

"Okay."

I whispered.

He turned his face towards me, his tired green eyes glistening in the candle lights.

"Don't ever expect me to act all lovey-dovey towards you, I can only act my duties towards you, nothing more, nothing less."

His raspy cold words stung a little in my heart.

I nodded.

I wanted that. Of course. I can't love anyone except him. But why am I feeling like this?

Questions ran through my mind as made my way into the closet and set on a pair of comfortable sleeping dress, as in pajama shorts and t-shirt.

I came out of the closet and went inside the bathroom,locking the door behind.

I stared at my reflection on the mirror.

This wasn't me.

Who have I become?
Where's the old me?

It's all because of him.

Tears started to build in my eyes and rolled down on my cheeks.

I opened the tap and cupping water in my hands, I splashed it, removing all types of make up .

After a few moments ,I was done removing tons of make up and jewelleries.

I stepped out of the bathroom, slowly making my way towards the bed.

I slowly lay down,thinking about how my life just became a mess.

Everything of me was broken.

Nothing can fix me.

But I have to be strong, for the ones that I love, for the ones that still have faith in me.

A soft melody was playing from somewhere in this room, slowly lulling me into a dreamless sleep....

I love him, still...

My chains of thoughts were broken as I heard the grunts coming from the man, beside me.

I watched as he slowly raised his hands, rubbing his eyes and yawning, squinting his eyes.

Oh, he's awake.

He popped himself up on his elbows, shutting the alarm beside the bed, which I didn't notice before.

He sighed as he looked hazily around the room, slowly his bright green eyes landing on me.

He stared at me for a few momemts before removing the duvet and getting up from the bed, heading towards the bathroom.

"Good morning to you too!"

I muttered as the door behind him closed.

Why is he behaving like this with me?

Did I do something wrong?

Am I wrong?

Am I the mistake that he carried only for the sake of our families?

I don't know.

And I don't even want to know.

At the end, it's always me.

I am at the fault.

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Note:

Chap 2 is up!

Sorry if I did any mistake.

My neighbour just died and I was literally weeping  so sorry.

I am in depression rn because I don't handle death good.

I can't tolerate the pain.