Taken and Torn [Niam/Narry/Nouis/Ziall]

Chapter 24: Awkward Moment

Zayn’s P.O.V

“No need to be sorry…your voice was perfect.”

My breathing stopped as Niall’s sweet voice echoed inside my head. Can it be? Can it seriously be?! I slowly looked up at him and found his eyes still closed. “Right, now I’m crazy. I’m starting to hear things. I’m starting to hear your voice Ni.” I croaked out together with my constant sniffs.

To my surprise, the blonde boy in front of me chuckled weakly. “You weren’t hearing things. It was me Zayn.” Niall’s smile slowly faded. “I’m sorry.”

“For what?! For goodness’ sake Niall, what the hell are you sorry for?” I pushed.

He sighed heavily, like an angel slowly falling out of grace. And for the first time in what seems like forever, he opened his eyes. I felt my heart lighten up. His bright pair of blue eyes is slowly illuminating my cold, dark world again. His eyes are sending radiant rays of new hope and new beginnings. But deep down in them were guilt, sorrow, and despair.

“Niall please…please answer me.” My tears are threatening to fall out again. It surprises me that I still have these much tears left.

Niall wiped a stray tear on my cheek with his thumb. “Don’t cry. You’re making me feel worse.” His voice was vulnerable and hoarse.

“I’m sorry, I can’t help it. It saddens me to see you like this.” I said. “But Niall, please tell me. What’s in your mind?”

“Zayn…” he trailed off. He looked at me straight in the eyes and sighed. “Zayn, you’ve done so much for me…”

“So? That’s all I ever wanted for things to be. That’s how I wanted things to go!”

“No Zayn, you don’t understand…”

“What don’t I understand Ni?”

“Zayn listen to me…”

“No!” My voice was raised. “Niall, I don’t want to see you depressed over things you don’t need to think about. Niall, I love you and these material things I’ve given to you cannot measure up to my affection for you.”

“That’s the problem Zayn!” Niall’s breathing was starting to shake. I don’t know if it’s healthy for him to be like this. “That’s the point. You love me. You’ve been promising me a lot of things, that I’ll be yours forever…and I can’t even say the same promises back!”

“Why can you not Ni?” I looked at him sincerely.

Niall looked at me. Fresh tears were forming in his eyes. “Because there are others Zayn. I love them as much as I love you. I love all of you equally.”

“There’s no such thing as loving people equally Ni.”

“But there is Zayn!”

“Shhh.” I stroked his cheek. “Niall even though the situation for you seems to be that way, you still can’t run from the truth. There must be one of us who means more to you for even a zero point one percent.”

“Zayn…”

“But Niall, you don’t have to worry. Like we said, whoever you choose, all of us will be happy for you. We don’t have the right to deprive you from happiness and eternal love. Sure the rest whom you won’t pick would be sad and mourn for a few days…but I know that we, or hopefully, they…will get over it.”

“You promise?” Niall looked at me with hope.

I kissed his forehead; oh how I missed this feeling. “I promise.”