Taken and Torn [Niam/Narry/Nouis/Ziall]

Chapter 25: The Decision

Niall’s P.O.V

“But sooner or later, you’ll have to make a choice honey. You can’t keep the four of them, you know that?” My mom’s sympathetic voice ringed through the phone.

I’ve been really confused lately. It’s like, as the days pass by, the pressure about choosing between the four of them is getting more and more intense. I know I have to choose between them eventually; it’s just that I’m not yet ready.

“I know Mum, I know. But I love them all so much. I – I want to keep all of them. I know it sounds selfish but it is what it is.” I sighed heavily.

“You know you have all the time you need right? They’re not even pressuring you. You’re pressuring yourself.” There was a short period of silence after that. Maybe Mum was right; I have been pressuring myself. “Well, I have to go honey. Your dad is having some problems in the garage. We love you Niall, remember that.”

“I love you too, Mum! Oh! And uhm, tell Greg he sucks and that I miss him.” I let out a chuckle.

My mum giggled, “I will honey. Goodbye!”

“G’bye Mum.” I placed my phone down and flopped down on the bed. “I still have to make a choice though. I can’t run away from that” I mumbled at myself. ”…well, except if I do run away.” I shook my head at the thought. Running away would probably be the last thing I would do right now. Running away from the people who loves you is dumber than not knowing what 4 multiplied by 4 is. Well, that’s a bit of an exaggeration but you get my point.

Who though?

Liam? Genuinely gentle. Cool, calm and very collected and has a very great sense of responsibility. One who can assure you that he will be beside you through thick and thin, one that will be your shelter where there is no roof, one that will be your pillow where there is no bed, and one that will be your ear where there is no one who will listen to you. Liam was the first who took my virginity and even though how unexpected it was, it was indeed a night to remember. Nevertheless, I’ll be more than lucky to have Liam stay with me forever. Or…

Harry? Yes, he can be a ridiculously big pervert. But deep down inside all of his sexual frustrations, there’s a gentle and loving Harry inside. I mean, how could I forget that time on the tree house where he sang a song for me? Oh, his voice was just like a Mozart symphony to my ears. Or how could I even forget the time where he gave me comfort when the other boys have to talk to my father about my sexuality and…all of this. Harry can be very devoted the sexuality department but he is also one of the most humane and civilized person I have ever met. Or…

Louis? The guy with probably one of the people with the best humor I have ever encountered in my entire life. He’s the type of person who can turn your frown upside down – the type of person whom you’d love to be with every single day. He seems like the type to love you and leave you but he’s the opposite of that. He never has the heart to see someone he cares about crying. He’ll cheer you up with his jokes. Sometimes his jokes may be a little bit corny but you need to look past that and appreciate him for trying to make you smile. He’s the one I’m most comfortable with and the one I laugh the most with. Or…

Zayn? To be honest, at first, out of all the boys in this house, I thought Zayn was the one who I never would want to have something with. I mean, he was vicious and violent. He did give me bruises from all the ‘punishments’ he gave me. But you know what? I guess Zayn isn’t really that devious. I think he’s just misunderstood. He was so grown into the thought of having intense physical punishments to be the best way of winning someone’s heart. But you know what, I guess it’s safe to say that deep inside, Zayn is tender. He learned how to care and love someone without the physical abuse. And I guess I’m proud to say that I changed him to be like that. Zayn can be critical, but I guess that’s what makes a relationship with Zayn a hundred times more challenging, right?