Why!?
That's the question that screams in my head over and over again.
Why me!?
How many times will this happen to me!?
No more I say!
I'm done with the rape and assault.
I'm done with this pattern of helplessness.
DONE DONE DONE!
Never again will I let anyone in.
"Nice and Innocent" is so over rated.
"Bitchy and distant" is my new style.
I'm changed because of you.
I've lost all trust in the world because of four people.
Four guys who have touched me
Four guys who have stolen something from inside me.
The new me is budding.
No longer am I the delicate rose everyone wanted and loved.
I am now a dandelion.
I have proven that I can withstand poisons brought upon me.
I have been stepped on, picked and thrown to the side.
I have been called ugly, small and not good enough.
I have been told that no one was going to love me like they did.
I was told that love isn't about words and romantic action,
nor is it about fighting through the bad days...
I was told it was about giving yourself up sexually.
Once upon a time I believed those words.
I was taken advantage of.
I was used
I was hurt.
But even after the storm, the poisons and the droughts.
I still stand.
Like a perfect, golden dandelion.
and I don't see a problem with being a perfect dandelion.
Because I know my worth.
I know I am loved.
And I know the love that I give is true hearted and rare.
I just think you should know.
This perfect, golden dandelion...
shes not going anywhere.
