The secrets were still hidden

Part 9

Today was the day Jay was going home and he wasn't excited at all. "Come on Jay" Will said

"I'm coming, it's not easy you know!" He said as he wheeled himself out of his room, "Where's Erin?"

"She's already at the apartment" Will said

"Ok, lets just get going then" Jay said making his way towards the exit.

Jay was silent on the way back to the apartment and Will didn't really know what to say to him. Will pulled up at the apartment and helped Jay from the car to his wheelchair. "I got it from here man" Jay said

"No it's cool, I told Erin I would help you up" Will replied

"I SAID I GOT IT!" Jay shouted

"Ok whatever you say... I'll call by later" Will said getting back into his car.

Jay got into the apartment block and pushed the button on the lift but it wouldn't work so he took out his phone and dialed Erin, "Hey babe" She said

"The lift won't work"

"What why?"

"I don't know Erin, it wouldn't exactly tell me"

"Jay it's ok I'll call the building guy, just hang on"

Jay put the phone down and was sat downstairs for at least another ten minutes until someone came and fixed the lift.  Jay open the door to his apartment and saw Erin sitting on the couch, "Hey" Erin said

"oh hey I'm gonna get in bed" Jay said wheeling passed her

"Jay don't shut me out please"

"yeah whatever you say Erin!" He said going into the bedroom

"Jay?... I'm gonna go to the district" Erin said standing up.

At the district

Erin made her way through the district and up the stairs towards the bullpen, "Hey Hank" She said making her way to her desk

"I'm not even going to tell you that you shouldn't be here because you know that" Hank said

"I'm sorry, I'm just giving Jay his space"

"would you not rather be with Jay?"

"He's in bed and that's all he wants to do anyway you are four people down so I'll help in anyway I can"

"Ok, ok but you stay at that desk, we don't need you getting hurt even more." Hank said

"Thanks Hank"

Jay's POV

Laying in bed staring at my ceiling is driving me insane and I can't do it anymore. The next thing I know is that im packing a bag and i'm in an uber on my way to the airport, It kills me knowing who and what i'm leaving behind but I can't live in a wheelchair doing nothing for the rest of my life. I know Erin won't understand but I left her a letter explaining everything.

Nobody's POV 

Erin sat at her desk and picked up her phone but as she dialed Jay it went straight to voicemail, "Hey Mouse can you call Jay please?" She said grabbing her crutches and walking over to his desk.

"Yeah sure...straight to voicemail"

"Erm I  need you to drive me to the apartment"

Hank then came out of his office, "What's going on?"

"I need to check on Jay, his phone is going straight to voicemail. Mouse is going to drive me"

"ok don't be long"

"Thanks Hank, lets go Mouse"

Mouse and Erin raced to the apartment and the lift felt like it took years, "Somethings wrong Mouse I know it is"

"you don't know that yet" Mouse said as they walked towards the door.

Erin unlocked her door and made her way inside, "Jay... jay...jay?"

She didn't get an answer and made her way to the bedroom, "Jay?". Erin opened the wardrobe to see Jay clothes were gone when she heard Mouse, "Erin get in here"

Erin walked out of the bedroom to see Mouse stood near the kitchen counter with a letter in his hand, "From Jay?" He said

"Yeah" She said as he passed her the letter. Erin already had tears in her eyes as she started to read it,

'Erin, the first thing I want to say is that i'm really sorry. The accident had changed my whole life and I can't stay in Chicago anymore. While you're reading this I will be on a flight towards Afghanistan, I know this is going to be hard to understand but a old friend of mine managed to find me a job I can I do at the base camp. I decided to do this because I can't spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair being a lost cause and at least this way I can do something I have always loved doing. I know you won't understand but if and when I come back I will be back for you and our child. Please inform the rest of the team and tell them how sorry I am. Please don't come and find me because I need some time to process what has happened in my life. I love you so much Erin Lindsey and I should  be back soon... love from Jay xxx'  

Erin stopped reading and Mouse turned around to see her crutches fall to the floor and he reached out to catch her as her body went limp, "Hey Erin, you're ok"

Erin was in pieces and didn't know what to say and Mouse knew he had to get her back to the district so he put the letter in his pocket and picked Erin up and carried her towards the car.

Hank's POV

Me and Antonio were working on some case files when I saw Mouse carrying Erin up the stairs and I walked towards them as he put her down in his chair, "What's going to Mouse?"

I stood next to Mouse as he pulled out a letter and started to read it out loud,

 "Erin, the first thing I want to say is that i'm really sorry. The accident had changed my whole life and I can't stay in Chicago anymore. While you're reading this I will be on a flight towards Afghanistan, I know this is going to be hard to understand but a old friend of mine managed to find me a job I can I do at the base camp. I decided to do this because I can't spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair being a lost cause and at least this way I can do something I have always loved doing. I know you won't understand but if and when I come back I will be back for you and our child. Please inform the rest of the team and tell them how sorry I am. Please don't come and find me because I need some time to process what has happened in my life. I love you so much Erin Lindsey and I should be back soon... love from Jay xxx"

"What the hell?" Antonio said walking over to them

"Jay's... gone to Afghanistan" Erin said

I stood in silence trying to figure out what to do, "Mouse do you know where this camp is?"

"Yeah we both spent years there" Mouse said

"Right board a plane and go now" I said to him

"but sarge he said-"

"I don't care what he said, he is family and he has left his pregnant girlfriend, now go we'll look after Erin"

"I'll call you guys as soon as I get there" Mouse said as he ran down the stairs

Mouse left and I got down on one knee in front of Erin, "Right what do you want to do?"

"I don't know Hank" she cried to me

"Right you can come stay with me, I can look after you"

"Are you sure?"

"of course, you are always welcome you know that, we'll go round to your apartment after work and grab your clothes"

Erin wrapped her arms around me, "Thanks Hank"

Will Jay ever come back and what will happen to Linstead? Please comment or review.