The secrets were still hidden

Part 13

Jay's POV

I woke up in a chair as I felt someone shaking me, "what's up Will?"

"You've been asleep for hours"

"Why...did something happen?"

"no it's still the same, don't worry"

"That's what makes me worry Will" I sat up and rubbed my eyes and looked up at Erin in the hospital bed with a tubes coming out of her mouth.

"when she going to wake up, it's been two months?" I asked Will

"We are going to try again tomorrow but we don't know if that will work and we have to be careful"

I lent forward and put my hand on Erin's bump, "it's going to be ok, both of you are going to be ok"

I looked up at Will, "Listen Jay I know you are hoping for everything to be ok but you have to be ready in case something does happen because a placental abruption can cause problems."

"It can't happen, it just can't. I had a dream that we lost the baby and she killed herself by jumping off the roof so we need to do everything to save them both because I can't even bare to think what this will do to Erin if she loses the baby."

"You got it bro"

A few hours later

Jay had gone to the district to check on the rest of the team when he got a phone call,

"Hello"

"Hey, look man it's Will"

Jay sat up at his desk, "Will what's happened"

"We took Erin of the ventilator-"

"What happened?"

"It didn't work, she's still unconscious"

"Dammit" Jay threw his phone down on to the desk

"What's going on Jay?" Hank asked

"It didn't work AGAIN!"

"Ok go to the hospital and be with Erin, I'll come by later" Hank said to Jay as he left the bullpen.

Jay got to the hospital and made his way towards Erin room but when he got to her room, it was empty. He turned around and walked to the nurses desk, "Excuse me, where's Erin Lindsey gone she's not in her room?"

"I'm not sure i'll just check," The nurse said

"Jay" He heard Will shout from behind him

"What's happened?" Jay started to get upset

"she's fine, but her contractions started so they took her up to the delivery ward just to keep an eye on her"

Jay put his hand on Will's shoulder, "Yeah but she's still on the ventilator"

"They can still deliver the baby through C-section"

Jay and Will walked up the stairs and through the labor and delivery ward and Jay went into Erin's room. He sat down next to her and took her hand, "Hey..."

"...I don't know why I keep talking to you because you can't even hear me but Erin... please you have to wake up soon please... you have to breathe on your own for yourself and our little girl-" Jay wiped the tears from his cheek as a doctor walked in

"Sorry for disturbing you"she said

"It's ok, who are you?" Jay asked

"I'm doctor Franklin, Will Halstead called me and i'm hear to monitor Erin and we are going to try and take Erin off the ventilator tomorrow but with some different medication but it is up to Erin if she wakes up or not, we can't exactly force it."

"Will it work, could it affect anything?"

"It won't affect anything but there's only so many times we can try so we just have to be careful"

"Well thank you for trying and i'm glad my brother called you"

Jay watched as the doctor left and got into the bed with Erin. He brushed her hair behind her ear and started to cry, "I'm so sorry for leaving you and look at what happened because of the stress I caused you, I just wanted to get better for our baby being born and I just wish you would wake up please... please...please" He cried himself to sleep.

The next day

Will walked into Erin's room and saw Jay lying next to her, "Morning man, how you doing?"

"Just thinking about stuff" Jay said

"What about?"

"How things would of been different if I didn't leave but I needed to leave because I knew I had to walk again and I only knew one person who could help me this fast"

"You need to stop blaming yourself, you would still be in a wheelchair if you didn't go out there... anyway Dr Franklin is on her way up to try again."

"Good, good" Jay said getting off the bed and sitting in the chair.

All the doctors and nurses came into Erin room and Jay sat by her side as Dr Franklin turned the ventilator off, "Come on Erin, come on". Jay sat and watched her but nothing was happening but then Jay left out a massive sigh as Erin took her first breathe on her own after two months, "Ugh thank god!" Jay said kissing the back of her hand.

"Thank you so much" He said to Dr Franklin

"It was my pleasure and if all goes to plan Erin should be awake shortly and she will be able to deliver her baby without any surgery" The doctor said leaving.

Jay sat back in his chair waiting for Erin to wake up and he sat watching their baby's heart monitor.

Six hours later

Jay was walking back to Erin's room with coffee when he saw Will, "Hey Will"

"Hey how's Erin?"

"Good she's off the ventilator and i'm waiting for her to wake up, hey man I haven't had a chance to thank you for calling that doctor, I don't think Erin would be off of the ventilator if it wasn't for her"

"Trust me I would have done everything to save Erin and she owed me a favor anyway"

"Thanks again bro" Jay said as Will ran off to a patient.

Jay walked into the room and nearly dropped his coffee as he saw Erin sat in the bed awake, "Long time, no see I guess" She said

"Maybe for you, but I've been sat here everyday for over two months waiting for you to come off the ventilator and I couldn't be happier"

"Wait... how, how's the baby?" Erin panicked 

"She... is fine and you had few contractions this morning"

"Am I in labor?" 

"It's starting, look at the machine next to you"

Erin looked to her side and lifted up the trail of paper to see lots of squiggly lines going up and down, "I can't wait to have her, especially after everything we have been through-" Erin looked up at Jay with tears in her eyes, "I really thought we were going to lose her like, the car crash, the surgeries and then when I saw I was bleeding I really thought I was losing her this time"

"Hey look at me... we will never lose her, she has you and me and nothing is going to change that, I love you"

"I love you too" Erin said as Jay kissed her.