Words

Mean

Stupid, fat, ugly, weird. Stupid, fat, ugly, weird. A constant loop in my head. Words that only one person said. Stupid, fat, ugly, weird. Snap out of it Lydia it's going to be okay... when has it ever been okay? When in my life has there not been something bad? Stupid, fat, ugly, weird.

"Hey Lydia" my friend Kat taps me on the leg. "I messed up..." she says."What did you do?" I asked.

Kat looks around the room. "Hear it goes" she sighs, and pulls up her sleeve. No, not her too. Slashes all up and down her arm.

She pulls down her sleeve "Don't tell anyone please" she looks at me with pleading eyes. "Okay".

I can't do anything for her because I know from experience with myself. All I can do is hold her hand.

So many people have been claimed by the darkness, including myself. The darkness offers us a hand, so we take it. Then the sky doesn't seem as blue, the light doesn't seem as bright, and we don't feel anymore.

Stupid, fat, ugly, weird, are the words that Hannah said to me. They drag me around on the floor like I'm just a rope being pulled by a dog. 

The sun is hot. We have all migrated outside of the building and are being forced to die in the heat. Me and Kat are standing beside each other when my friends Finn and Nora walk over. Finn has his head in his hands and Nora looks like she's on the verge of crying. "What's wrong" I ask Nora.

"It's Hannah and her BS" she says while crying.

Hannah came over and asked "Nora, what's wrong?"

"Like you care!!" Nora shouts back, pure hatred coming off of her.

"I actually do care" Hannah says with a lot of sass.

"No you don't you are just a fake friend and I'm tired of all of this!!"

Hannah storms off and I watch her walk away. I can see where she is heading, down that same path I took.

I jog over to her friend Jenny and say "Make sure Hannah's alright". It doesn't matter that she called me all of those names I don't want to see her walk down that dark road.

I jog back over to my friends. "Hannah's prettier than me I'm ugly" I hear Nora say. "No your beautiful" we all say. I grab hold of her when she tries to run away.

"I'm ugly" she keeps on saying and there's a "no your not" every time she says it. I finally let go and she takes off running and we do too. We chase her for around, then Finn jumps in front of her and she stops. I grabbed her from the back as she starts crying and saying "I just want everything to be alright".

I look over and I see Jenny talking to Hannah and she's laughing. Good job I tell myself, you just saved one more.