Im sorry.
Im sorry im not good enough
Im sorry that at night i dont sleep
In fear of the things under my bed
Feeding me lies about myself
That they call
Truth
Im sorry that i know i am no good
I am sorry
At night i go outside and i sit and listen the the crack of the thunder
The only thing that reminds me to breath
I am sorry that everyday i hide behind fake smiles and sleeves.
Im sorry thay everyday i lie
I lie about being okay
The only thing i dont lie about is being tired
I am tired of having to cover my mouth at night so no one hear my pained cries in the cold dark of the night.
The only thing that makes me feel alive
When i breath it feels like a weight is pushing down yelling at me
Saying
"NO, YOY DONT GET TO BREATH BECAUSE YoU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR AIR!"
And all I can say is
"Im sorry."
I am sorry that i cant get out of bed
My body is tired
Cause i carry my life like a ball in a chain that slows down evrrything i love
I dont know what i love anymore because i am to tured to get out of bed some days
I am to tired to live
Somedays i just want to sleep and never wake up
I spend moat of my day getring myself out of bed
I sit in the shower because i used to much energy to drag this weight around
I am sorry
I am sorry i burden yoy with my problems
I am sorry that i am no good
I am sorry that i lie
I am sorry that i am me
I am not me
The me inside is locked aeay screaming and banging on the windows to let her out
But i cant
I cant let her out because i dont know how
I am sorry
