Why?

2.Allison Lanchowski

Hey! You, the person I've known for 8 years. Yes, you. You were my good friend, at least, that's what I thought. You've always been there for me. And helped me. What can I tell you? Yes, I have a lot to say. I would have wanted to tell you this in front of you. You know how it is. There is a lot of pain in these words. I do not even know if it's worth telling you. But you deserve it. You deserve to know my opinion about you. You deserve to know what I'm thinking. You deserve to understand what made us do away with.

Let's start with the beginning. How did we know, and from what started everything.

From the first class, from the first day of school, I know we'll be friends for life. In short, we will be best friends.

Since that day, we've always started talking. We were small. We were talking about anything. Just how do you know? In the '' secret 'section, you are a little awkward. I'm not saying you're not trusting. But you always get naked. There is always a part of you who would like to tell everyone what you talk to other people about their secrets. At least, I see you. That's how I saw you.

Even after 8 years, I can say you still have that part of you who wants this. From my perspective, you're a person who does not like loneliness. You know what it's like to be alone? Do not get out of the house for days? Are you afraid that if you step out of the house the world will judge you? You're saying you know. But you do not know. You do not know. Even if you put yourself in that place you do not understand.

Years have passed and we have become closer despite that little problem. Until that time, this loneliness I was talking about earlier. I began to feel more and more lonely. You had more and more friends, and I felt more and more abandoned. Did you know that, did not you?

I knew that I needed a break. I needed to be in a place far from our little town. Far from those awful people who made me day by day to be sorry for my life. We both knew. So I left. I went for a change. Let me come back. Stop thinking about problems. All those problems? Those bad people? Let's say you know what it is - James Robble. - Yeah, we'll get there too. James is causing my thousands of problems and what have you done? You found a hole in it. Were you angry that I left you, and wanted to take revenge on me? 6 months I felt the loneliness offered by my best friend. 6 months in which I cried, 6 months when I needed to talk to someone, I needed someone to listen to me but you were not there anymore. James does not let you talk to me, and you worse listen to him. Because you wanted a good revenge. And what did your revenge help you with? I do not understand your decision after almost a year.

Passing over, the 6 months have passed, and I have returned to town. We started to go out again. You told me it was a mistake, and I believed you.

We started to be close again. Just by the way, you know ... you fell in love with Adam. I always had the impression that you are after his attention. In a way, I always seemed to look at you mercifully. Always when we were outside, you were upset about anything that comes to him to calm down. Come to join you. And it hurt me. Try to spend time with him alone. You always talked to him, always talking by phone, even when you were with me. It was annoying. Damn annoying.

But that's you. You are the person who does not like loneliness, the person who is not sure of her feelings, the person who cares for attention, and the person who can not keep something for her alone. Believe me this is the truth. That's you, Allison.