i sobbed into my mom's shirt, she stroked my hair as the tears fell down my face. "honey, i told you not to get involved with that boy." she whispered.
"you don't get it! i need him, mom! i love him, i'm nothing without justin foley. i'm screwed up..." i sobbed. she sighed and rubbed circles on my shoulder.
"it's okay, baby."
"i'm really in love with him, mom..." i whimpered and she nodded and cooed. "i know you are, baby, if you really love him then you need to show him that. i mean...he broke your heart but i know this feeling. i feel this way about your father and i will never step in front of that but all i ask is that you go slowly and don't let yourself get hurt." she said and i continued to sob into her shirt and she let me.
"you're going to his house later and you're going to tell him that."
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i stood in front of the door with my eyes closed, i waited for justin to answer the door but no one would come. i knocked again but there was still no answer so i did something dumb and opened the door. i stepped into the crappy apartment and closed the door behind me. "justin?" i called out but i heard no answer so i continued to walk towards his bedroom. then i heard it.
i heard shouting and the sound of someone choking, the door swung open to reveal an angry guy who was probably twice my age and justin who's neck was red. "kelsey, what are you doing here?" he asked and i gulped. i stay silent, not knowing what to answer as the mans eyes skimmed over my body.
"who is this?" the man asked.
"stay the hell away from her!" justin grabbed my arm and pulled me behind him.
"i want you quiet! understood? if i fucking hear you again then she pays!" he exclaimed and stormed into the room on the other side of the hall. the door slammed behind him and the air was replaced with moans and groans.
justin closed the door behind us quietly and pushed me against the wall gently. "what the fuck are you doing here? are you crazy?!" he whispered/yelled.
"i love you. i fucking love you and i'm not letting you push me away, i'm not letting you go ever again because i love you. i need you in my life, justin foley." i mumbled and slammed my lips onto his own.
"you need to go, kelsey." he muttered and pushed me away.
"i'm not going until you take me back."
"i'm not doing that."
"why?"
"because i can't fucking hurt you again and i will! i'm a piece of insecure shit and i know that i'll break your heart so no. i'm not taking you back."
"then i'm not leaving." i pushed past him, kicked my shoes off and crawled under his covers.
"go away."
"no."
"please."
"no. now lay down."
"not until you leave."
"then i guess you're standing."
i shrugged and turned to the wall, i closed my eyes and let myself drift off to sleep but i felt the blanket lift and his arms slip around me.
