beach boy

one hundred ninety nine

i have my regents test tomorrow 😁 wish me luck, also last chapterrr

troye really is a pretty boy, i've known it for a while, and everyone just seems so captivated by him.

i always forget that troye doesnt know i'm gay... i'm sure it would have helped him be more comfortable when he first told me about his life before this.

i just dont know how to tell him- or anyone.

we ended our day by going to the top of the empire state building. to say the least, it was beautiful. ive been up here a couple times, but none the less, this has been my favorite time because i was with troye.

yeah ive been up here with connor, and my parents, and myself... but with troye, it was different.

now i dont know if you know this, but, when i see troye, i see colors sometimes.

colors that arent supposed to be there, but they just appear in my mind. right now as we are on top of the empire state building, i see a warm pink glow around him; none the less it's also a feeling.

i dont know what it means but its something that warms my heart and makes me smile.

i snap a picture for a memory

little did i know that this picture might be all i have left of him.