suicidal, harry styles

two

Kathy

"Now, I want you to promise me something," I nod. "Wake up tomorrow. Go into your bathroom. Look at your reflection and say what you like about yourself. Then I want you to smile. Can you do that for me?"
I nod once again, "I can." I give him a small smile. "I'll talk to you at lunch tomorrow and we'll talk some more,"

Harry

Even if this is a dare, I will not act like it is one. I will treat her the way I want while still following the rules of the dare. I want to be there for her while I can. I want to help her while I can. Before she will want nothing to do with me. I close the door and my sister Gemma enters the living room. "She was really pretty. I like this one," She jokes as she heads to the kitchen with my mum and Robin. Gemma has recently died her hair black and I really like it on her. I join them and sit next to Gemma and Robin. "What's for dinner today?" Gemma smiles, she loves food. "Today we have," My mum sets the food down. "Chicken and Pasta," She smiles at the creation Robin and her have made. We all dig in and enjoy my mother's cooking.

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"Have you asked her out yet?" Jack asks as I get ready for period zero, soccer. I laugh, "It's only been a day, what do you think?" I ask. "You fucked her and left in the morning," He says it so casually. "No, I'm not you," I give him a huge fake smile. He chuckles, "Yeah, guess not," I put on my jersey which has 'Styles' and '14' labeled on the back and head out to the field.

Kathy

I look at my reflection. I look at all my flaws and try to find the things I like about myself. I like my hair. It's a natural dark brown and it's long and I like it the way it is. I like my eyes. They're the same colour as my hair. I also wish they were a more interesting colour like Harry's. But lets not think of Harry, this is what I like about me. I like my height. If I was shorter, I would probably look more fatter than I am. No, Kathy, not fatter... chubbier. I need to start accepting myself, remember?
Okay, now I smile. I am beautiful. I am beautiful. I am beautiful. I am beautiful. There, there's that smile.
I smile wider in satisfaction, I can do this. I go get some breakfast and my mum joins me in the car. I've only had Harry as a friend for a day and I already feel much better. I can't wait to see him again. I can't wait to get better.

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"Did you miss me?" Harry nudges my shoulder playfully with his. "Not at all," I joke. "You're lying," I shake my head.
"Nope, I don't miss you," I lie once again. "Tell me you miss me," He gives me a puppy dog face. "No can do," but that's a really cute puppy dog face.
"Say it," He whines. "Okay, Okay! I missed you," I giggle. "How much," He asks. "Very much," it's only been a day.
"Did you do what I asked you?" I nod.
"What did you tell yourself?" He asks before shoving some chips in his mouth. "I said I liked my hair, eyes, and height. That's all," I shrug.
"What about your personality?"
"I think too much, which I hate. It's also the reason that I don't smile much, because I'm thinking. I guess I like that I'm myself," I grab a chip from him. It wouldn't hurt to eat a chip. "I understand. I also think a lot. Sometimes, I see a girl look at me more than once and I think to myself, 'woah, that girl must like me!' I hate it." I laugh. "Why wouldn't she like you?"
"What do you mean?" He really doesn't see it? "You're just.. you. You look attractive without trying, Your smile is beautiful, and you're fucking charismatic!" He gives a small smile.
"Yeah, but what about who I am? What about what i do? Don't they care about that?" He asks me. "I don't know, but for me, I liked you for you," I put my hand over his, wondering if I should have not. He connects his fingers with mine. "That's why I like you," At this point, I still don't know if he means as a friend or more. But I don't care, at least he's here for me and I am for him.

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