suicidal, harry styles

six

Harry

The whole lunch hour was spent with both of us, alone.
I held her in my arms. We had some knocks planted on the door. They just groaned and left. But the rest of the time, it was silent. Only our breathing was heard and her sobbing got quieter. I might have fallen for her even more in this silence. I hear a loud knock, "Kathy? Are you in there, Honey?"
That isn't her mother, I'm sure of it. "It's my counsellor," She whispers. "Do you want me to open the door?" I whisper again.
She sighs, "I think we have to," I stand up and give her my hand and she gets up. I unlock the door and the counsellor comes in. "Oh my god, Kathy. You're okay," She hugs her tightly and then turns to me.
"Did you save her?" I smile and nod, "Yeah," and I would do it again. She wraps her arms around me and I hug her back. "Thank you. We wouldn't want such a beautiful girl to head to the other side yet," I nod. She isn't ready to leave yet. She hasn't used everything that god has given her.
And when she does, she can leave.
But I don't want to think about her leaving. I'm glad she's alive now.
I probably would have felt dead if she was gone. "She's very special," I see her blush and it makes me chuckle. "Well, I'll leave you two alone. See you guys later," She waves and shuts the door. I open my arms and wait for her to hug me and the bell rings. "Just hug mee," I whine. She giggles and wraps her arms around me.

"No, play this one. I love it," Kathy and I were choosing which song to play on my record player. She chose Riot Van by Arctic Monkeys.
From their 2006 album, I believe.
"I want you to hear this one first, you haven't heard it," I show her another song from that album, When The Sun Goes Down. "Okay but the other one next," She sits on my bed. I play it and we both lay on my bed, staring at the ceiling.
"Said who's that girl there. I wonder what went wrong so that she had to roam the streets," I sang along with Alex Turner. She turns to look at me with a smile. "What?" I ask.
"You sing good," I try to move closer to her, maybe give her a kiss but my mum interrupts and opens the door. "Here are your laundry baskets back. You guys aren't doing any funny business, right?"
She raises an eyebrow. I see my sister behind her humping the air and I roll my eyes. "No, mum. We are just friends," I smirk. What. A. Lie. "Good. See you two at dinner!" She smiles and waves goodbye. She closers the door and I turn back to Kathy. "So," I move closer to her. "You think I'm a good singer?" She nods, "Yes I do."
I get on top of her, holding my body up with my legs and hands.
"How about kissing?" I place my lips on hers roughly. "Am I good kisser?" I whisper onto her neck before leaving wet kisses. She lets out little moans and a nod. I give her a smile before kissing her lips more softly and passionately. I couldn't help but smile wider when she grinned at my actions. The song ends and I put on Riot Van for her. "Let's start homework,"
She grabs her backpack and plants it on her bed. "Not just yet," I grab her hand, I put a hand on her waist and give her three more little kisses. "Okay now," she giggles and I grab my own bag.

"Kathy! Harry! Gemma!" I hear Robin shout. Kathy had fallen asleep while I was taking a shower.
I didn't want to wake her up, she was probably very tired. I decide to let her sleep and walk downstairs.
Gemma follows me down. "Where's Kathy?" They ask me.
"She fell asleep, I didn't want to wake her," the family doesn't know yet that she has attempted to commit suicide. I think we should keep it that way. "I'll leave some food for her, if she's hungry later."
I nod and sit down and begin to eat.

Kathy

"You fucking whore! Sleeping around here. I should've known better and tied you up at home!"
My father shouts at my mum.
"Please, you don't understand,"
He slams his beer bottle on the floor. "I understand you're hiding from me! Where's that boy you like, Kathy? Does he live here?" He smirks at me. "Uh...No," He chuckles, "Don't lie to your father,"
"Really, he's not here," I lie again.
"What's going on here?" Harry walks downstairs. "There's that wonderful boy you like! Ain't he handsome? Won't be handsome when I use his fucking skin to make a lamp shade," He grabs something out of his pocket. It's a knife. "Come here boy, you won't feel a thing," He lies and walks slowly closer to Harry. Harry puts his hands up. My father sighs, "It wouldn't be nice if a girl saw the boy she liked get skinned to death," I sigh, he's not doing it.
"So I'm going to skin you first," He points at me with his knife and chases me around the house before finally getting a hold of my and taking off all my skin.

I'm still here but...I can't feel anything.
I'm still here but... I can't see.
I'm still here but...
I'm still here...
I'm still...
I'm...
I...
...

"Kathy, Christ! Kathy wake up! It's just a dream!" I open my eyes wide and scream. Why am I being pushed? The light turns on and it's just Harry. "W....what..." I try to speak. "It was just a dream, don't worry you're safe with me," He wraps his arms around me and I suddenly get the feeling of safety once again. We both lay down on my bed and he wraps my cover around us. We fall asleep together and I wouldn't think of a better way to feel after a nightmare.

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ILYSM THANKS FOR READING!

(yes I kind of copied unwind stfu ok ily)