MindFragments

Today

You know when you like a song for a really long time but never really get it, but then all of a sudden you just get how it makes sense and feel like it applies for everything you are living in that moment. And that's important. Living, I mean. Living could be a state of mind or a way of being in this world, being really here. But do you really like listening to the Spotify ads over and over again without paying for a premium account? But is it really worth it? Would you rather be petty and listen to the song you like when you want it? Or is it just a way of living better? Life is full of decisions, decisions which you make everyday. Do you ever wonder what would happen with your whole life if you took a different decision yesterday or before that or today or tomorrow or in a really long time? In video games sometimes you get to see the outcome of taking different decisions and how the story changes and the character gets to be totally different. Do you like it? Taking control of someone's life even if it's fictional, the fact of knowing different outcomes from different decisions and actions is really pleasant but you can't really do that with someone's life or your own. How much control do you really have over yourself?

I awake to see that no one is free. We're all fugitives, look at the way we live.

To watch a movie just because an actor you like acts in there but finding out a fictional kid who writes weird stuff but it really gets you thinking and how cool is that? Taking you from one thing to another, jumping into weird knowledge and after all realizing that it's just a movie. But how many stories in wattpad get published? How many don't? If one you read before is now published do you really buy it?

How long can you practice for something just to ruin it all in the moment you need it? Self-esteem can destroy you, it can really get you down. How long do you tell yourself you're happy and satisfied with yourself before you don't start insulting yourself and hurting yourself in the moment when you really don't need all that negativity? But can you really ever shut that voice inside your head up, the one telling you that you're not good enough and that you could never make it even if you were so prepared and ready for it. How can you let yourself down while performing? How can you be your worst enemy and the one you're afraid of the most even if you keep telling yourself you're happy again, smiling every time. Then again, how many people standing in front of you, watching every move you make can you take while crying?

And the spies came out of the water but you're feeling so bad cause you know that the spies hide out in every corner but you can't touch them no.

But then again, does crying in front of a group of people makes you a coward or does it take courage to do that. Can they see the vein popping out of your temple because you're killing yourself inside for doing it wrong or do they just see the red face and tears coming out of your blurred eyes? Would they feel sorry for you or annoyed because they think you're just trying to get attention? But do they really know you?

Could someone embarrass themselves crying at an important moment just for attention? And then when you're done should you get annoyed at everyone and anyone for hugging you and telling you you were the best in there just because they saw you crying or should you feel great because in some way they care about you? Or were they just trying to be nice and make a good action that day? And if you would've chosen not to cry and achieved it, would they still tell you those things? It's all about actions and decisions. So should you really believe their compliments or just asume they're guilt ones?

And if we don't hide here they're gonna find us. And if we don't hide now, they're gonna catch us while we sleep. And if we don't hide here, they're gonna find us.

So could you call a friend someone who suddenly stopped talking to you and just finished tv show you told them to watch and messages you? Should you get mad for just remembering you exist at that moment because they have no one else to talk to or should you be glad they think about you and forget you ever stopped talking? No video game to know how your life turns out in both paths if you made up or got really angry.

So should you keep hurting yourself or just let yourself go? Can you really accomplish that last part or would you haunt yourself? Questions left to be answered but can they really?