Strong.

Chapter 5

The first day I was in the hospital I pretended to be asleep the entire time so I didn’t have to talk anyone. Day 2 I was questioned by the police, Andrew was in custody and I was going to have to testify. I started sobbing for Andrew. I didn’t want him in jail. I didn’t want him mad at me, that was my mindset for a while, I tried to tell myself I wanted it, and that Andrew really did love me. But when I looked in the mirror I knew he was a monster. I mean I couldn’t speak because my jaw was wired shut and you don’t do that to the people you love.

When I looked out my window we were at a giant aquarium I was freaking out.

“Harry! Thank you this is amazing!”

“You get to swim with each different species of whale they have here babe.”

“You are shitting me right?”

“Nope, they have 11 of them. We’re all swimming with them.”

“Niall eats them…”

“It’s okay I’m not hungry.” He said from the backseat and Vanessa piped up and side to Niall, “You are ALWAYS hungry Ni.”

We all laughed as we pulled into our parking space. We climbed out of the car and Harry walked around the front of the car and held my hand and led us to the front entrance. When we got there  Harry told them his name, they handed him a bunch of paperwork and sent us to wait on a bench.

That’s when I heard it. The beautiful sound of a male humpback I would guess to be a full grown. He was singing at it was such a beautiful sound. I don’t know when I started crying but I did. It was so incredible.

“Thank you Haz.” I whispered into his neck. He smiled down at me as our ‘tour guide’ walked up and met us. We all shook his hand.

“Hello, i’m Leroy. I’m your guide today. Well, let’s take you to your first whale to swim with.  How does the humpback sound to start with?” I squealed in agreement and Harry let this low rumble out of his throat in place of a laugh. Ugh. Harry.

We followed Leroy through the park, we heard a few excited girls scream to Harry and Niall. We didn’t pass a single whale on our walk. Harry could sense my eagerness I’m sure. Leroy opened a huge closet type thing and handed us all wetsuits.  Vanessa I walked into the women’s locker room and the boys went to the other.

“Ness. This is so perfect.”

“You have to give him a proper thank you.” She said before winking at me. I blushed at the thought. It’s not that I didn’t want to be intimate with Harry. I was afraid. Will it hurt like with Andrew? What if he thinks my body is gross?

I shook the thought out of my head as I slipped my bikini on and looking in the mirror. I poked at the excess fat on my stomach and trailed along a few of the faint stretch marks I had on my stomach. When Vanessa came up next to me I looked at her, of course she’s skinny and has a great body. What would I look like next to the chiseled body of Harry.

“What if he is turned off by my body? Like what if I can’t please him. What if I’m not as good as all the others?”

“Do you not see the way he looks at you?” I shake my head no. “Then you’re blind. He’s to the moon for you. Already. Don’t rush anything. You know that is probably not that important to him anyway. Plus you got a hot bod. You have big ol’ honkers, an ass to die for, and you’re curvy. Harry likes curves. Now shut up before I let the whales eat you.”

“Whales will NEVER eat a human. Especially not baleen whales. Ass.”

She looked at me like I had 6 heads. I liked being knowledgeable about whales.