Age Doesn't Matter (Rocky Lynch) ✅

Rockys Pov

Two Months.Two Fuckin months without my Babygirl . and how do I feel? Like shit , Yes I'm having fun on tour but Being away from my Girl , the love of my whole life for 9 months is gonna be the hardest thing I've ever done .I can't even concentrate some days without her .

After I got off of the computer after face timing her , I cried , I just straight up cried. I miss her so much !

How am I supposed to be away from her for 7 more months ? It hurts me , it hurts me so fuckin bad ! .

I'm probably sounding pathetic but I love that girl more than ANYTHING in the world and when I mean anything I mean I love her more than I love myself .

I can't live without her .

Anyways , today was our day off , Everyone was doing their own thing , Rydel was watching a scary movie with Ellington . Riker was playing video games with Ross , Ryland was talking to Hayley.

Mom and dad were up front , I was in my bunk Looking through Engagement rings .

I know what your thinking 😏 But I'm not gonna ask her to be mine fully until After our two year anniversary.

I was just looking ! I wasn't gonna buy it yet . I sighed looking up at the ceiling "What's wrong Bro ?" Ryland asked sitting on his bunk .

"I miss Kortney .... A lot " I replied looking over at him  . "I know how that feels " He slightly smiled looking down.

"I still can't believe the tour is this long " I Mumbled playing with my ring . " do we have time off of tour for a few days?" I asked Ryland .

He just shrugged , I got on my phone and began to message andre.

R: Hey , do we have time off of tour for a few days ?

Andre : No , Sorry why ?..

R: Because I wanted to surprise Kortney

I shut my phone off licking my lips staring at the celling again . Just thinking .

I got up walking into the sitting area of the bus , slipping on my shoes grabbing my phone and walking off of the bus , I took a walk to the park sitting on a bench taking out a book that I was reading .

Reasons to stay Alive (Matt Haig )

I was on page 180 , I began to read a page when I began to think of my past of what my girlfriend saw me do to myself , the memories seeing her cry because of me , everything was because of me .

I heard someone approach me , I wiped my eyes looking up seeing three fans with smiles and phones on them.

"Can we have a picture ?" They asked nicely , i nodded and smiles taking selfies with them , one of them kissed my cheek for the pic.

"Where's that Bitch of a girlfriend ?" One of them asked ," Yeah what the hell do you see in that skank ? She's gross " the other one said .

"She's a fucking Whore ! She needs to die to be honest " They laughed walking away.

I looked down swallowing slowly , My lip began to quiver as the thinks kept repeating in my head .

She's a whore

She deserves to die

What do you see in that skank?

Ugly bitch

Fuck her

She's worthless

All she wants is fame and sex

She is the ugliest whore in the world .

I fuckin hate her

I blinked as a tear slowly fell down my face. I shook my head "Fucking fans " I mumbled as my lip began to quiver some more , I ran my fingers through my hair looking down at my feet .

I stood up grabbing my book walking back to the bus , Full on tears getting into my bunk crying into my pilliow.

I got on my phone and Dialed my Girl's number but she didn't answer , I left a voicemail .

" Princess , I - I love you so Much ! I honestly don't know how to say I love you so Much but I do . I'm - I'm sorry about everything in the past . I - I miss you , everyday , I trust what we built together. I'm in a total wreck ! I need to here your voice ! I need you right now ! Babe please pick up ....Baby?.....I love you "
I hung up the phone wiping my eyes with a sigh .

I lied down with the covers around me as I fell asleep slowly.