Napakurap ako nang marinig ang tanong nya.
"W-what?"
Hindi sya nagsalita. He was just glaring at me. His jaw clenched. Kahit ang hot nya tingnan magalit, I'd rather have him normal. I cupped the side of my neck na tinitingnan nya at patakbo na pumasok sa kwarto ko.
Humarap ako sa salamin, tumingala and there I saw it. What the fuck?
I froze.
Hindi ko alam kung sino ang gumawa noon sa akin. I was so damn drunk at the party. Shit. Alam kaya ni Sari?
But it's the least of my concern now. Lumakas ang kabog ng dibdib ko nang marinig ko ang mga yabag ni Ford papalapit. What do I do? He's mad. At kung sabihin ko ang totoo na hindi ko alam kung sino ang gumawa noon, mas lalo siguro syang magagalit.
Iisipin nya na naman na may iba akong naka sex while I pledged to be exclusive to him! I'm freaking screwed.
Humarap ako sa kanya. Hindi pa rin nagbabago ang expression ng mukha nya. How do I explain it? Bakit hindi ko rin napansin?
Bigla kong naalala ang pagtitig ni Sari sa akin when we were eating before we go home. Pati si kuya Argos. Hindi sila tumitingin sa mukha ko dahil may dumi, pero sa leeg ko pala dahil may kissmark ako!
Damn embarrassing!
""F-ford ano kasi. This is just an accident." Oh. Accident? Shit. Paano magiging accident ang kissmark? It'll take a few seconds to make one. And whoever that is, meant hinayaan ko lang sya!
"Don't fuck with me Amihan. Gawa ba 'yan nung lalaking kasama mo sa putanginang picture na pinost mo kagabi? Ha?" He pulled me in my elbow.
"H-hindi.."
"What? So may iba pa?" Lalong naningkit ang mga mata nya,
"N-no, it's not what I mean." Nangangatal ang mga labi ko. I am blaming myself for drinking and enjoying at the party too much and not realizing na may chikinini na ako! Christ!
Humihigpit ang hawak nya sa siko ko.
"Ford, calm down. Let me explain. W-walang nangyari or what. This is just a kissmark. When I told you I'm exclusive to you, I meant it-"
"When you told me you're exclusive to me, it means no one would have the right to fucking touch you but me." His chest was heaving. "It meant no one would have the right to even get close to you to give you a fucking kissmark!" Malakas na sabi nya.
I was shaking. Naiiyak na ako. Ayokong magalit si Ford sa akin.
"Ford calm down please." Mahinang sabi ko.
Parang naipit ang boses ko dahil iyon lang ang kaya kong masabi.
He gritted his teeth. "Did you also fuck him? Was he a good fucker than I am? Did you moan his name while he was fucking you?"
Sunod sunod akong umiling at sunod sunod na rin na tumulo ang mga luha ko. The last thing I need now is Ford getting mad at me and accused me of having sex with some guy.
It hurts hearing him asks those question. Iniinsulto nya ako pero hindi ko magawang sagutin sya because I don't know what to say.
Instead, dahan dahan akong napasalampak sa carpeted floor ng kwarto ko. Hindi tumitigil sa pagluha ang mga mata ko.
Don't be mad at me, please.
"I'm sorry." Ang tanging nasabi ko in between my sobs. "The truth is, hindi ko alam kung sino ang nagbigay nito sa akin. I was so drunk. I enjoyed the party too much. But I know I didn't fuck anyone, which, at least is what I can remember."
