Xahara

                                 SIX

                             Xahara

The next couple of days passed in a breeze, no contact with Heather & I hadn't told Faheem yet

Mostly, because I don't know how to tell him that she's not his.

Well here goes nothing

Looking at Faheem sitting in the family room, leaning against the wall he looks at me "Yea"

"Nothing" I give him the best smile I possibily could

I walk towards him sliding the envelope on the table that's next to the door making my way towards him

Climbing on the couch straddling his lap confused the shit out of him

He hit the off button on the remote & looked at me

"What you doing Rae"

"We have to talk & hopefully this position will give you comfort"

"About what ?"

"Heather & Carmen" he practically growled at that statement

"You've been talking to Heather a lot lately, people have been telling me you'll have been out with each other"

DAMN PEOPLE SHOLL ARE NOISEY !!

"Yes only for one reason & I'm about to tell you now"

"Go ahead" "When she came she mentioned something about that you trying to take your daughter away from her" "So don't you know when she asked to see the babies ?" he nods

"Well when she was looking at them she blurted out they look more like you then her kid would ever look @ first I was confused so when she left that following day I went back to work

"What you trying to say Rae get to it"

"So when I went to work I asked one of my coworker's to check Carmen's DNA & see who male DNA she matches & it wasn't yours."

Saying I was scared was an understatement, I was terrified, because of the flame in his eyes was a mix of anger, pain, fear, and more.

"Are you trying to ruin my life Rae?" he asks which shocks me

"N-O I'm not trying to ruin your life"

"Well it seems so, because the daughter I've been raising for almost 12 years is now not mine"

Lifting myself off his lap I looked at him "You think I'd wish she wasn't yours to make myself happier?"

"Yes I do"

Before I know it I was saying what I've been afraid to tell anyone or myself for a year now

"Before you go anywhere I want to tell you something I won't even admit to myself"

"What is it"

"I purposely got pregnant"

"What the fuck do you mean 'purposely'  "

"I mean as in a year ago when we were dating I was insecure ass hell I knew I'd never be who you truely wanted me to be, so that time we had sex & you assumed I was still on the pill, I wasn't no more. I wanted a child in my life not so I could keep you, but so I'd always have someone who'd always love me no matter what I did