Septiplier is love septiplier is life

Memories

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ MENTIONS SUICIDE AND SELF HARM
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Jacks POV
A fond smile spread across my face  as I flipped through the pages of Marks memory book. I turned the page and a chuckle escaped my lips as my eyes landed on a picture of mark carrying me across a puddle. It was our first date. We were on walk and he was joking about chivalry. He saw a small puddle and stopped dramatically ,making me stop as well. "MY LOVE. I SHALL PROTECT YOU FROM THE CRUEL HARSHNESS OF THIS PUDDLE." He said in a shitty British accent, and proceeded to pick me up bridal style. He snapped a selfie of the moment. My face was bright pink and buried in the crook of his neck, an embarrassed smile painted smile painted my lips. He wore a proud grin on his perfect face. His eyes gleamed with happiness and pride. A twinge of pain struck my heart, but I continued. The next picture made my heart flutter. My eyes came in contact with a picture of the two of us kissing in front of the Eiffel Tower. It was our two year anniversary. His hands were around my waist as he pulled me closer to him, never wanting to let me go. My hands cupped his face, cherishing the beautiful moment with him. I smiled and continued to flip through the pages. The next picture gave me mixed emotions. I felt a mixture of happiness, sadness, and anger. But it was understandable in my case. It was our engagement picture. We were in front of the pond at the park. The sunset painted a beautiful mixture of colors in the sky above us to match the beautiful moment. He was down on one knee, a hopeful smile on his face. My hands covered my mouth and my eyes were overflowing with tears of joy. Im going to cherish and miss that moment forever. I flipped through the book until I got to the last page. My heart stopped. A laminated piece of paper was paper clipped to the page. A letter. A letter that tore my heart out everytime I thought about it. A letter that stole the breath from my lungs and caused the pain in my heart. My lover's last words. His suicide note. "Im sorry, Jack. I love you more than anything. Please dont hate me. Im sorry I couldn't be here for you anymore, I hated to see you in pain. I hated seeing you struggle with hate because of me. No matter how many times I pleaded, it never stopped. What I've done is selfish. I understand if you never forgive me, if you hate me now. I hope you'll forgive me when we meet again. Goodbye, my love.~Mark." Tears poured from my eyes and dripped onto the plastic page below. I watched as my tears slid off the page and dripped onto the cuts on my skin.My heart was breaking all over again. I should hate him. But I don't. I never will. "I'll never stop loving you, asshole." I chuckled through tears.