Stagger

Friday 7th

Friday 7th

I couldn't sleep much that night, endlessly running situations through my head of things I could say to Grace to apologise for being such an ungrateful ass but nothing came to mind.

A plain sorry should do it but it doesn't sound sincere... this is why I'm a shut in.
I slept in so I decided to skip school for the day and I woke up to a ton of messages from my friend group, she didn't go to school either.
My heart dropped, I grabbed my jacket and left through the front door straight to her house without any plan of action at all.
I got there and knocked on the door, my chest still heaving as I began to catch my breath, the door opened but it wasn't who I wanted to see.

"H- hello I'm here to see Grace" I should've took a second to catch my breath before knocking but I'm an idiot.
"Oh, I'm sorry but Grace is at the hospital right now" my heart sank again, why I leave things on a bad note with her, my jaw dropped but I couldn't get a word out. "She's in hospital right now, she got rushed in last night" those words came far too fluently from her mouth and I hated it.

"Are you her mother?" Simple questions help you clarify the situation, I assumed she wasn't from how easily she said that Grace was in hospital, it didn't seem like she was even worried. "I am? And who might you be?" I was wrong... "hello, I'm Jake, one of Grace's friends. This maybe rude to ask on our first encounter but may I come in and learn more about Grace?" There were a few problems with the sentence I just spoke.

1. After how I treat her I doubt we are friends
2. Never ask to enter a house on the first encounter
3. Never ask to learn about someone if you say you're friends with them

She looked surprised and hesitant which isn't surprising, what is surprising is the fact that she let me in.
We sat over tea and discussed Grace in a lot of detail, although she is really popular with the guys at school she has never been in a relationship, the three guys who were harassing her are well known to the family and are definitely not a new problem, she tried to kill herself after school but was caught and rushed to hospital, this wasn't her first attempt on her life. Before leaving I managed to get Grace's number but I'm pretty sure her mom knows I'm not too close with Grace.

Repeatedly I'm going to tell you how much of an idiot I am, just if you can't clarify or forget I will be sure to keep reminding you. I still couldn't think of anything to tell her so I didn't text her at all over the weekend but she never left my mind. I was so worried over a girl I met once, it really confused me why I had taken so much interest in this one girl.