Secret Protector

Chapter 8: I "L" You

"Who's there" I yell reaching behind me for my closet door handle. I open it up and run in hiding in my clothes pushed far against my wall. I hear the noise it's a boy I can hear him grunt it sounded like he fell. "Jessica, it's just me come on out Jess, I won't bite, I just want to talk come on, please we need to talk". I slowly walk toward the closet door and push down on the handle. Once the door was open leaned up against the door frame was that beautiful hearted Nate. "How did you, why did you, when did you, Ho...how did you" I kept asking stumbling for the right words.

He smiled then answered "Your window was unlocked and there's a tree right their so..um, yeah sorry I didn't mean to scare you" he smirked.

I looked down at my clothes again and I was wearing the same thing I wore this morning. "Oh, gosh what is it with you and seeing me this way" I scoffed "what was it you wanted to talk about" I said pushing past him and jumping on my bed and laying down. I sat criss-cross apple sauce and watched him stalking over to the bed. He slowly got on the bed and sat down across from me, I was afraid of what he was going to say so I started fidgeting around with my fingers. "We haven't known each other long but I feel like I've known you my entire life" he said grabbing my chin so I would have to face him "And I'm not ready to loose you, why'd you try to kill yourself, I mean if I hadn't have come here and come to your room you would've been dead, do you know how selfish that is, leaving me alone without you not having you with me, if I could I would spend every waking moment with you " he states. I try to say something but he cuts me off "I Love You, I know its ridiculous to say you love a person you just met but I do and I don't want to live without you, unless you order me away I'll always be here" he smiles and stares at me he must have seen my reaction cause I didn't but I can guess what it would've looked like. It would've looked like I had just seen an angel, and the angel tell me I was going on a search for something I've never heard of. I had gotten up off the bed and walked over to the bathroom I locked the door and put my back to the door and sighed. I've never felt the "L" word but I was sure I was feeling it now I think I maybe overacting but I felt like I was suffocating, the walls felt like they were caving in. I could hear footsteps walk over to the door, I heard Nate sigh "It's okay if you don't feel the same way, I just thought you should know and if you want me gone ill go, ill give you some space, uh bye Jess" I heard him start to walk out of the room and his footsteps slowly start to fade away.

Right then I opened up the bathroom door and ran over to him. I stopped when I was to his back, he turned around and stared down at my face he was three inches taller than me and I was told I was tall. He just stood there standing staring at me I looked at him for another minute before I turned around and sat on my bed. I patted my hand gesturing for him to sit with me, he came over and sat down beside me, he had a small smile on his face. But his face told me otherwise that he had a worry that I might turn him down. "I've never felt love for anyone, but just as you said, I've never felt this way about anyone" I looked out my window and at the stars then continued "But I Love You too and I don't want to loose you" he then pulled me in for my very first kiss. It was soft, sweet, but with force and love I guess, for my first kiss was the very best and hopefully my last with anyone. I only want to kiss him and have him all to myself and to love him forever and know one else but him. After a few seconds he pulled away "Was that okay, I mean I just have wanted to do that for awhile, were you okay with that" I smiled looking at him smile "Yes". "Why did you try to kill yourself" he asked again I wasn't trying to be rude but I didn't want to say that it was because I was afraid to loose everything that I had and that I thought this was a dream and that I would wake up and everything be gone. So I decided to say what my best friend had said last year to me when she found out I was moving. "Love scares, and you can share, but Love will always be right their".

He looked confused so I explained it more to him "Love scares some people like me, but you can always share love too when I left my friend said that knowing it fit me perfectly that she would have to let me go she was amazing she was like a sister to me see she had to share me with the world or Florida I should say, but that her love will always be right here with me" he looked like he was debating what to say. "Why?" he asked. "I was afraid to loose everything I had you dale my mom, I thought this was all a dream and I only thought I took a couple I guess I took more than I thought, I was tired and wanted to get some good rest, and when you ran out this morning and dale saying stuff about love" I stopped then and went back to the bed I had been pacing moving my hands around and using gestures. "I didn't mean to kill myself it wasn't intentional I just wanted to sleep, lately I've been having weird dreams and when I took the pills I had a good and strange dream" he chuckled and pulled me off the bed and gave me a great big hug. What was strange was that it had like the man in my dreams when he hugged me.

"I'm just glad you didn't do it on purpose" he said chuckling.

"So what now" I asked with suspicion in my voice.

"Well, would you like to go on a date Saturday night, I wanna take you somewhere special" he asked with an eyebrow raised.

"I'd like that" I grinned, my teeth showing, but in a good way a sweet grin.

"Well, you should get to bed" Nate said while looking at me.

"You can stay if you want, I mean at least till I fall asleep" I finally walked over to the bed and climbed under the sheets it was starting to get cold. "I'd love that" he said with a smirk creeping up from his lips. He came to the bed and curled up next to me. Holding me in his arms my head was against his chest, I could feel his heart beat. I felt like my heart was beating a mile a minute. I couldn't help but smile every time I faced him. I questioned wether I should talk or not so for awhile I was silent. Not saying a word until it was completely necessary, which was only if he spoke.

"Hey, Jessica how do you feel about scary movies" he asked, he kissed the top oft head I could feel him inhale and exhale.

"Honestly, scary movies don't scare me at all but certain things do like clowns and dolls and that's about all I ever get scared of" I said with my arms wrapping around his side.

"Okay, well just know that I'll always protect you no matter what" he chuckled then added "even if scary clowns and dolls are out to get you" he laughed once more.

"What are you afraid of, I mean even a muscular guy like you must be afraid of something" I giggled and lift my head from his chest to see his angel like face.

"Well, I'm afraid of losing you and a couple other things I don't want to say" his smile had turned into a frown. I wonder why? All I did was ask him what he had asked me. This mythological god in front of me at times could seem a mystery. He's hiding something from me and I don't know what?. But I will find out and try to help him. Maybe his family? or maybe something bad has happened to him that made him afraid to tell?. My thoughts we're interrupt when he yawned, and stretched. "well beautiful you should try to sleep, you've had a long couple days" with that I fell asleep with my head on his stomach his arms wrapped around me and no space between us. I was glad he liked to cuddle , I love being cuddled. It brings me happy thoughts, and knowing that someone loves you is amazing.

________Sleep_______________

I was laying in the grass while I kept hearing sirens. Doctors saying that the surgery was over he made it. But sadly he escaped and know one could find him. Doctors, police, sheriffs, state police, everyone was on the look for him. Him? Luke the little boy I was holding in the hospital, the one I checked up on every hour who was he?. This kid is a mystery I don't remember having any of my foster family's ever having a boy named Luke not even the one is in basically my entire life. He wasn't from my real family. Who is this mysterious child named Luke?. Where did he disappear too?

The strange part of it was why did I care for this forgotten child that haunted my dreams.