Owari no Seraph (Various x Reader)

Forgivness 許し (Mikaela x Ferid's Sister Reader) Part 1

Warning: Unedited!

You watched your older brother ruthlessly kill the Hyakuya orphans from the corner of the hall with an vacant and empty expression on your face. Your scarlet eyes were blank, lifeless and unresponsive to the chaos that was unfolding before you.

But it wasn't that you didn't care about what was happening, it was just that it was too painful for you to see so many children die so young.

Even so, you made no move to stop it. You made no effort to help them.

Instead, you watched. You watched as blood was wasted. You watched as lives were lost. You watched as tears were shed.

You didn't do anything but watch...

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Your boots clicked rhythmically on the marble floor as you swiftly walked down the corridor towards Ferid's study. Just as you got to the door and were about to knock, it opened with a loud bang and Mikaela stomped out of the study with a scowl on his face. He stopped for a second to glare down at you threateningly before taking a sharp turn left, leaving the way you came from.

You flinched slightly at his expression but turned back to doorway and knocked on the wall next to the door.

"Come in~" A singsong voice called out.

As you entered the room, your gaze fell on Ferid who was contemplating over some documents.

He hummed a short tuneless note before looking up. "Oh (F/N)-chan! How are you doing? I haven't seen you in ever so long!"

"You saw me just this morning..." You said flatly before flopping onto one of the antique wooden chairs Ferid liked to collect.

"I did? I must have forgotten!" He exclaimed sunnily, setting down his papers.

"Niisan, what were you talking to him about?" You asked.

"Huh? You mean Mika?" Ferid blinked and tilted his head slightly.

"Who else would I be talking about?"

"Aw (F/N)-chan! You came here just to chat about Mika? And here I am, hoping that you were visiting because you missed your lovely brother!"

"Lovely my ass. And as if I would miss you." You replied tonelessly.

He tactfully ignored your words. "Why do you want to know?"

You didn't say anything, but your wince gave enough away.

Suddenly his expression turned into a more serious one. "You're still guilty for not saving the orphans." It wasn't a question.

Ferid was quite obviously observant to the point where it got creepy.

"Er... Well... Uh..."

He was right though, you have never forgiven yourself for not intervening the massacre. After all, you only just stood there, ignoring the cries of help that were clearly directed at you. That was why you were trying redeem yourself by succouring Mikaela.

But of course he wouldn't accept your guidance and support. He would push you away whenever you would try help him, wether it be when he was thirsty or when Ferid was being particularly insensitive. You don't blame him though. You never would.

"But you know, (F/N)-chan, if you did stop me, the world would have been doomed for eternity." Ferid said as lent back on his chair. "Well, that's if you can actually stop me. You're only an thirteenth progenitor after all."

"I know..." You whispered sadly and hung your head in shame.

Then you feel a hand on your head and you lift your head in surprise.

Ferid gently ruffled your (H/L) hair before saying softly. "He doesn't loathe you, you know?"

Your eyes widened in surprise but you quickly composed yourself again. "As if! He hates me with passion!" You scoffed. "And I totally understand why..."

"Mmmm, you're rather oblivious aren't ya (F/N)-chan!" His voice had changed back to the usual teasing tone. "Open your eyes! Then you will see that he doesn't hate you. Rather, he hates himself for not being able to protect his family." Ferid grinned slyly and waved his hands in the air dramatically.

Really? Then why does he not accept my assistance?

"Have you fallen for him (F/N)-chan?" His sudden question caught you off guard.

"Wha?"

"..."

"..."

"..."

"I don't know, Niisan..." You breathed out, lifting your hands to rub your temples where you could feel a headache coming.

"Have you ever tried to find out if you do? Or are you just too scared to?"

This question startled you more than the first. You stared at the gold ornate carpet below you as you let your arms fall to your sides. "I..." You said despairing as you forcing your mentally exhausted self to stand. "I think I need to go collect my thoughts." You sighed as you began to leave.

"Good luck." Ferid said light-heartedly before returning his attention back to the papers he held at hand.

You gently shut the door behind you and you noted the extensive crack on the door from Mikaela being a little bit to rough. You exhaled again as you spun to your right and trudged to the garden.

You stared down as you walked and tried in vain to sort out your thoughts and emotions.

It was true though, Ferid was right, you had fallen for Mikaela. Just pathetic could you get? How on earth could have you fallen in love with that hostile half vampire? Question after question filled your mind. You were scared. There was no denying that now.

"Ugh! Am I going crazy?" You suddenly screamed. "I can't take it anymore!"

"You have always been crazy." A monotonous voice spoke from behind you.

You yelped and jumped in surprise. You spun around, coming face to face with a expressionless Mikaela. "W-what do you mean?"

"You have always been crazy." He repeated. "What's so hard to understand about that?"

You flushed red in embarrassment and stomped your foot angrily before hollering furiously. "Of course I understand what you mean! Why do I even love an idiot like you?"

There was a longgggggg stretch of awkward silence. "Oops..." You whispered once you realised your mistake. You saw Mikaela open his mouth as if to say something, but before he could, you had already fled.

The trees and bushes around you were only blurs as you ran like your life depended on it. You frantically wiped away the tears that were increasing by the second and held back sobs.

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A/N:
My first every fanfic XD.
How was it? Hopefully it wasn't too bad and you liked it!
Sorry for making it so angsty! I promise there will be a happy ending in part 2.
(I know Ferid was a bit ooc, but I wanted him to caring and brotherly)