~Skylar's POV
Wearing: Tall Grey Aztec Print Burnout Sweater , Black Leggings, Grey Lace Frill Trim Socks
Hair and Makeup: Down And A Little Wavy, Retro Style Makeup
Lately I've been thinking about the importance of my life, the impact i have on people, the emotions they feel for me. My life wasn't something people would dream off, it never has been.
I had been in LA with Sawyer for a total of 2 days and i already felt that i shouldn't be here. I felt like an embarrassment to Sawyer, he never deserved a depressed, boring sister like me... I looked at the blank wall in my bedroom, in my mind i painted it with words of my feelings and emotions. This was how i usually found myself hiding my true feelings, a blank wall would know more than anyone ever could.
"Sky, how are you?" Sawyer whispered tip toeing into my room and sitting on the bed beside me.
"Fine..." I lied.
"Um.. Mum texted me and told me to tell you to take your pi-" I cut him off.
"I know" I sighed
Honestly, i wanted Sawyer to go away. I didn't want him to see the amount of pills i shoved inside of me just to make a fake smile display across my mouth. I harshly bit my lip as i pulled out my pill box, i could see the shock display on his face.
"Sky... there's so much" He frowned.
"I know..." I replied.
I didn't want him to feel sorry for me, i also didn't want to upset him. His face showed a range of emotions from shock to complete utter sadness. Guilt took over me as i set each pill on my tongue swallowing them without a gulp of water, it was my fault he was feeling sad at the moment. He watched me carefully until i took my last one.
"Done..." I sighed putting everything away.
"Sky, why is there so much?" Sawyer asked.
"Honestly, i don't know..." I replied.
I opened my suitcase up popping each tub into its place, that's when i heard Sawyer make an odd noise. I raised an eyebrow as i turned around to face him.
"Girl it's L-Freaking-A! You literally have no bright and light clothes" He sighed.
"I usually wear these" I replied.
"But it's hot here Skylar. Black attracts heat and trust me, you do not want to be caught out in the heat wearing black" He warned.
"So... it's just clothes" I shrugged my shoulders.
"Exactly, your clothes say a lot about you Sky. How about i organise a little shopping spree?" He chuckled.
"Do i have to?" I sighed.
"Uh hu! I can get Ingrid to go along with you, you remember Ingrid right?" He asked.
How could i not remember Ingrid? Her and Sawyer dated a while back and we became so close, she was my only friend apart from Sawyer in this horrible world! Even when they broke up we still remained friends, she saved me from a lot...
"Yes" I nodded.
"Okay, i'll tell her to come over before lunch and you guys can eat out! I'll be there too but not with you guys, Tyler asked me to help him shop for Playlist" Sawyer chuckled.
"Oh..." I replied.
Honestly, i didn't want to go shopping. As much as i love my older brother it felt as if he was trying to change me, dark colours have always been my signature colours, I've never really been the type of girl to dress in bright pretty colours like Ingrid. Plus my clothes do say a lot about me, they describe me in ways other people cant.
"But Sawyer... I'm not into all the pink stuff" I frowned.
"Well, i know a shop you would love" Sawyer smiled.
"What?" I asked.
"Urban Outfitters!" He said excitedly.
"Isnt that not dear?" I asked.
"Girl, we don't have spending limits! If you see something and you like it buy it, we are going to replace your whole wardrobe!" He grinned.
"why do you want me to change so god dam badly!" I sighed.
"Skylar... I don't want you to change, i just want you to be happy again. These dark clothes may just be another thing bringing you down a little. Change is always good" He smiled hugging me.
"It's just... it's been that way for so long. I guess i don't take to change too well" I sighed.
"Don't worry about it, your going to love it!" He grinned.
As much as i wanted to believe him, it was impossible.
-1pm
"So which store first?" Ingrid squealed in delight.
"I honestly have no clue" I sighed.
"Well how about Top Shop first? They do tons of clothes and tons of different styles" She suggested.
"I guess..." I replied.
As we walked to Top Shop i began to realise how much i missed these sort of things, i missed the cool air that gently blew against my face, i missed the busy shopping malls full of excited and happy people... Back home i gave all this up and huddled up in my own little world of depression, sometimes i regret not staying stronger... Sometimes i regret everything. As we entered Top Shop thousands of clothes fills my eyesight, an excited Ingrid pulled me over to different racks and layouts.
"This top is gorgeous!" She grinned holding up a white T-Shirt with a floral design on the pocket.
"It's lovely" I smiled.
"You think? I'll get it" She laughed.
"You should it really suits you" I complimented.
"Aw thank you Sky! Have you saw anything yet?" She asked.
"Not really... i have no clue what i want and what i need" I replied.
"Well then, let Ingrid help you with your LA Style Guide! First we need shorts, denim and acid washed shorts are so in and so you!" She grinned walking over to a shorts rack displaying really nice denim shorts!
It's funny how much i hated these sort of clothes but i was finding myself falling in love with them. I picked up 5 different pairs and then moved on.
"Now since we have the denim shorts we need some white t-shirts and some Cami's. These are a big yes" She grinned pulling out different white T-shirts and Cami tops.
"Wow... i never thought i would be doing this" I chuckled lightly.
"Trust me, once you get everything you need you will totally be able to relax and enjoy everything!" She smiled.
We went around Top Shop grabbing more tops, hoodies, shorts, jeans, pyjamas, dresses, shoes and jewellery!
"Sawyer said to me about Urban Outfitters! You will love it there" She smiled.
"Okay..." I nodded following her into Urban Outfitters.
My arms felt as if they were going to break with the amount of bags i had on my arms. The heat started to ray down, honestly i felt like i was going to die with a heat attack! Once we got inside a puff of cool air smashed against our faces, the shop was filled with fans! I took one look at this store and i knew that i already loved it! I got some beanies, shorts, checked shirts, skirts, leggings, tops, dresses, shoes, bags and some jewellery.
"Someone likes it here" The Cashier grinned.
"Yeah" I smiled.
Suddenly a lost looking Ingrid returned by my side.
"Did you get any-" She said coming to my side.
I really liked this new wardrobe, but i would miss my old clothes... I could miss the warmth they surrounded me in... Was i doing the right thing, i mean, trying to change... was it right?
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<3 This took forever because i thought it had saved but it did not so i had to rewrite </3 Sorryyyyy
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Fanfiction'I was always the girl who had everything then lost it. I had my family but everything else crumbled around me.' Skylar Hartman, the 19 year old who moved in with her YouTube star brother Sawyer. Skylar felt worthless and unwant...
