IMAGINATION

[1] JONAH MARAIS

JONAH MARAIS
DEAD

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You could be here, but you're there
You could be anywhere and these days I don't even care no more
You only be showing me love whenever you've had too much
Whatever's been filling your cup, no more

Y/N finally had enough with Jonah's bullshît. The past few months he was nothing but distant. She barely saw him at their shared apartment anymore. He was usually with the boys doing god knows what.

At first she understood that he needed to spend time with the boys since they were working on their new EP but then that all changed.

Nowadays she could care less on where Jonah was. He barely stepped foot in their apartment unless he wanted something from Y/N.

Baby, no more showing up when you're not sober
At my front door just to say you're alone tonight
Yeah, tryna fuck me and my mind up
It's a reminder you're a liar and you know I'm right

When Jonah finally did step foot in their shared apartment he would usually stumble his way in wasted. This would usually wake Y/N up from her slumber and she would help him.

She was being the caring girlfriend she was. She would help him get to bed. She would make sure he drank enough water before tucking him into bed. She would set a bottle of water and Advil on the nightstand for him to relieve his headache in the morning. She would also sleep in the couch just so Jonah could be comfortable.

In the mornings he would wake up with a pounding headache and gulp down an Advil. He would shower and change into clean clothes and walk into the living room and see a sleeping Y/N in the couch and he would feel guilty. He then proceeded to kiss her forehead and whisper an 'I love you' which she would hear as she began to awaken. She would faintly smile up at him and he would apologize for being drunk once again. She would say it was fine and he would promise he wouldn't do it again but those were all lies. He would then apologize and say that the boys needed him and that he would see her soon and she would just nod and watch him leave the apartment.

But now she wouldn't even care to do that.  She would be woken up by a wasted Jonah stumbling into their home and instead of helping him like she used to she would stand from their shared bed and lock the room door so he wouldn't get in.

She then would lie in bed and quietly cry herself to sleep.

You say you can't live without me
So why aren't you dead yet?
Why you still breathing?
And you say you can't live without me

At first Y/N confronted him about his sudden change in behavior and he would once again apologize and she would forgive him.

As he continued the same pattern over and over again she didnt confront him anymore but finally she decided to confront him once again.

She sat in the grey couch in their living room and waited for Jonah to arrive.

Finally after waiting for hours she heard the familiar click of the front door and saw Jonah walk in. Instead of being wasted like he usually was he was actually sober.

He locked the door behind him and started walking towards their shared room but instead he froze in his spot as he saw Y/N patiently sitting in the couch.

"I didnt know you were still up" He said as he made his way towards her. He leaned in for a kiss but she pulled away. Jonah backed away with a confused expression.

"What's wrong babe?"

Y/N scoffed as she rolled her eyes at the taller boy. "What's wrong? Are you really asking me that right now?!" Y/N stood from her spot on the couch. Jonah was surprised on her outburst.

"Jonah you're never home! I barely even see you anymore. When I do your drunk off your ass. I'm sick and tired of everything. I get that you have to spend time with boys to work on music but do you seriously have to be with them 24/7?! I'm honestly thinking about leaving and never coming back!"

Y/N was fuming at this point and Jonah shook his head. "Y/N baby no. I'm sorry, I really am. I need you. Baby I can't live without you. I know that I've been such a bad boyfriend lately but I promise! I p-promise I'll stop coming home late at night wasted. I'll spend less time with the boys but please. B-baby I can't live without you!"

Hot tears streamed down Y/N's face as she stared at the teary eyed Jonah in front of her. She shook her head as she walked towards their shared bedroom, Jonah following behind.

As soon as she walked inside she grabbed the bag she had packed earlier. Jonah's eyes widened. "What? Y/N what are you doing?!"

She walked passed him not saying anything as more tears streamed down her face.

Jonah stumbled behind her his vision blurry. "Y/N please don't do this!"

But she didn't listen. Instead she reached the front door and grabbed the knob ready to open it and storm out but Jonah grabbed her arm.

She turned to look at him, eyes red and puffy. Her face flushed.

"Y/N please. Dont leave me. Please. I'll do anything. Baby I can't live without you!"

Y/N didnt listen though. She was tired of his excuses. Instead she yanked her arm from his grasp and turned the knob of the door opening it. Before she walked out she turned to look at Jonah who had tears running down his face.

"You say you can't live without me so why aren't you dead yet? Huh? I just need some time to think Jonah. I'll talk to you when I'm ready but for now please just try and clean up your act"

And with that she walked away. Jonah called out to her but it was no use. He closed the door and turned his back on it. He let out a chocked sob as he slid down the door. His heart felt heavy as he broke into sobs and his head was beginning to hurt. He knew he had officially fûcked up.

Then why aren't you dead yet?
Why do you say that?

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a/n: I hope you guys enjoyed this one because I really like it. dont forget to send in requests and comment down ideas!

song that inspired this imagine:
Dead by Madison Beer

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