So, I've learned that this world is pretty fucked up, in more ways than one. People's hearts are being shattered, criminals are walking the streets, parents are walking out on their families, people are dying of cancer and other terrible diseases. The fucking list goes on. But, I also realized that things can be happening right in front of me and I don't even see it. That's how oblivious I am, and I don't like it. But somehow, I can tell when one of my best friends are going through something. It's their choice to talk, and my choice to listen. Honestly, when I think about my best friends going through something really terrible, a small part of me dies. I don't want them going through something like that. I love them way too much to ever let anything bad happen to them. I've been through some terrible things myself, but I hide it. I don't want anyone knowing how messed up I am, because the minute I start getting fucked up, my entire wold comes crashing down and my friends are stuck in the rubble. I put on a smile to hide the fact that I used to cry myself to sleep. I lift up my head to hide the fact that I used to keep it down and never show someone my eyes or my smile. I would wear my glasses to hide my bags under my eyes from not getting enough sleep. I was full of insecurities that i didn't know how to control. My mind used to tell me "you're so fucking ugly, you're too skinny, your hair isn't the right color, your eyes aren't as pretty as everyone says they are." The list goes on, it hurt, and I couldn't control it. Until I met one of the most amazing people ever. She's been through hell and back, and she survived. She helped me so much and I can't thank her enough. I never regret the day I talked to her. Yes, we may have our fights, disagreements, arguments, but our friendship is so strong that we can put it all behind us. We've both done and said stupid shit. But we've both stopped each other from ending it all, we promised each other we would never think about it, or think about doing it. She helped me fight, and I'm glad I can call her my best friend. I may have my stupid moments, but she puts up with me. I haven't unlocked every secret in her mind, but I've also only known her for 1 year. I have the privilege of getting to be with her for another 4 years, thank good we both got into LVA. I don't know what I would do without her. I love you Atir Hathaway. Thank you for sticking with me through all the bullshit. This is your song.
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