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Once a beautiful soul
"I try not to miss you,I try to let go, but In the end, your in my mind" The tragedy turned his once kind beautiful soul into a emotionless one
Michael was the type of guy that would be that popular guy who was nice in starline high school he had a girlfriend, friends he could count on in fact he played baseball which he was captain of as cliche as that sound but it caught up to him to fast.
Flashback:
His family was perfect or so he thought.
Him and his family was just returning from the movie theaters to him it felt like a bonding family time but, he did not notice his parents arguing about a affair that his mother had found out the day before
"How could you" his mother replied Shakingly wapping her tears away
"It wasn't like tha-" how was it like then?" She cut him off tilting her head mocking him
"I want a divorce I-I can't do this like you have a life someone would so badly want but, it seems your not happy so let me h-help you out" looking down at her hand that held the wedding ring before taking it off
"NO-getting cut off by a gun shot echoing off the walls
Everyone looked around and check themselves to see who got shot only to turn around to see their mother and his wife on the floor holding her stomach with tears down her brown soft face that held pain.
"Call 911!" One of the siblings said
I talked to them while dad put pressure on the wound with the t-shirt he took off
The ambulance came and got her dad told us to answer the questions the police men had and go home and get refresh and wait for him to call us
4 hours later
Everyone face was emotionless and Everything was just to quiet the clock ticking made everyone anxious I kept glancing at the phone waiting on dad to call the house phone not knowing what to expect from his mouth that held our reactions
The phone soon ringed and it felted like I lost every emotion I could feel at that moment
My thoughts blurred everything making me think things I thought I wouldn't think
"You should have been faster"
"Why didn't you push her out the way"
"You could of stopped it"
"Your nothing but a mistake to this family"
"You should just end it"
From then on there was no more "normal Michael"
Life got harder for Michael he was trying pretend be happy at school and at home but I'm really life it was quite the opposite
He broken off with his girlfriend who he has been with for about so long and ends up dropping his friends and dropping out of baseball. he thought he could only trust himself making him emotionless to the school earning the name "emotionless king"
He started to wear long sleeve's at school even if it was hot he would wear them to hind what he did underneath them because he had no one to reply on everyone was fighting their battles and he would just feel like a Burden
He did it anytime he felt no one was really looking and he needed to release stress or just because he felt the need to. It was something he felt he needed to do everyday like it was his drug
It only got him so far when he would not eat making him lose his tall and strong athletic body only for his body to become thin and his round cheeks to become slim. He just stop caring for himself he knew had to do better he just had no motivation His mother was gone so to him it felt like he didn't have a will to live anymore.
I strolled over to the river that held memories of my family chewing on my lip that became dry and cracked. Looking down at the water that seem so peacefully and calm I wanted to be like that
I looked around for any person in sight before shakely putting a leg over the railing then another sitting on it.
My heart was pounding against my chest like a drum being played my insides felt clumpy
I looked up to the sky thinking " Here I come mom"
I just want to end it Then I'll be at peace Its just I couldn't handle it anymore my thoughts are weighing me down.my guilt was eating me up inside before I even knew what was going on I was already in the water.
"I'm coming momma"
I was to deep into the water to hear screaming I hit my head causing me to black out and my body to go into ease
He ended it not knowing that his family needed him just as much as he desperately needed them
At his funeral the people at his high school was upset that they didn't notice his pain they named called him thinking that they made it worse. They were thinking of the what if's crying with tears down their face and maybe he could of been here
