A lots of things to do,
Don't find words
Weak in English
But want to write
Wish to write pain
Wish to feel pain when we write this word
Unknown to grammar
But still have courage to write
To write alots of things
Which I feel everyday
Don't want people to read me my words
Sometimes its enough to write a word you want to write and later you read how you used to feel that you write in words save it for you not for others for yourself,, poor vocabulary
But I think even when we have more than million impressive words in our mind still aren't enough to write what I want to
Writing is easy than telling someone something
Maybe its showing my mental status right now
Yeah I'm reader only
I read
I feel the story
Characters
Sometimes I relate with them
Making mistakes na
Yeah I'll learn from them later
I'm not a writer
But
We all are
We all are writer
Sometimes finding or searching for some favourable conditions
To write
To read
To feel
Yes its good to write sometimes when you don't want to talk don't want to listen any voice lost in your own world of imagination
Can't find the way to get out of it
Its good to write that later you know about yourself maybe it's helpful
Not for others for your own self
As like me
Don't know how to write
What to write
Topics etc
Just need a little extra time and that favourable condition suddenly
Just write don't worry about the matter you write words aren't enough
I don't have words those impressive topics and those attractive words to write a good thing maybe which is in my mind or in my veins
Running in my blood
From heart to lungs and then in all our the body
Just trying to understand myself right now
Its just a way to do it
I remember when I was in school how I used to write
When depress and worried
My old dairies my best frnd
Yeah my dairy is my best frnd and all books I read and all the characters they know me as I know them
They read me too as I do
Coz I feel them when I read them
There's is connection between reader and writer
I think
Soul connection maybe not
But
Well leave it
Like this I mess all the pages of my dairy when used to write
When I want to share something with those white beautiful pages with my favourite pen
Colorful pencils
Then college days
I was so energetic to change the world
Self motivator
When there is no one to understand no one to listen to me whom I share my thinking my dreams wishes
Still remember that crying child and still have in me
After ages searching my dairy and pen to write to share again with pages they literally understand me and I feel it they do
I love them
Books are life
Pages pen they have magic
They understand us
They feel us too as we do
They listen to us when no one else ready to be the listener
When I used to cry while reading and writing they wipe my tears and those pages absorb my tears can't find those words to write this relation between books and me pages pen ink all
Still I wish to write
Couldn't complete my studies to flourish myself more deeply as you read search study its all are process to unlock your mind you from the beginning know each and everything these all are process to develop yourself to unlock your mind..
Bad writer ever even I'm not writer just sharing something again with pages but still can't find words
Not good at English and poor vocabulary
But million of words in mind don't want to talk only want to write
There is peace in silence
When you just write no voice only words few can understand
Got a little peace right now
Much better than before
Again my best friend dairy understand me what I want to say what I want to write
Words books pen they never break your expectations they never break your heart
They heal you
Give you peace of mind
It's all are mess of words from top to end now
Coz I seriously don't have idea about writing
But its for me only
That's why I'm satisfy
These are some things like reading and sometimes sharing my thoughts with pages
These are the only things I feel better to do for myself and only things I feel happy to do
I was and I think maybe still now I'm positive thinker
But it's up to your environment and surrounding of people its all depends on them from these things you develop your mind and way of thinking yeah they impact alot
These all factors help to rise you or they can help to ruin you
Ruin your mind thinking
Yourself
That much and that badly that you start thinking like all of them
All the disappointments
Make you believe that you can't now
Don't think positive
De motivate yourself and all such type of stuff
Write even you don't know
Even you don't find proper way or words
It heals
When you share all of your burden with pages
As much as you love books pen and pages they love you even more its a silence relationship between you and pages books characters and pen too
Without expectations
Not every one know how to use words beautifully
Pages can understand everyone's feeling even when you are not writer
Yes now I'm back to consciousness feeling silly what I write
And yes feeling better too
They understand me this time too
I can feel it.
I love books pen pages unconditionally
And the way they understand and the feelings I got they can
Its seriously peaceful for my mind
That's it for now.
