T.D.Z (B3 of the Rebel Payne Series)

Chapter 35

~Avril's POV~

I looked over at Beau. He smiled lightly at me before speaking. "Go with your heart" he said.

I then looked over to Louis. From looking into his eyes you could tell he was breaking. You could tell he was absolutely sorry for what he did.

I looked down bitting my lip. I care about both of them, there's no denying that.

But i don't want to choose between them. I didn't want to pick the wrong person. Though, there's no doubt no matter what direction i choose, someone is gonna end up hurt.

I looked at each of them once more. I felt so conflicted.

I let out a sigh before making up my mind. I turned towards him and wrapped my arms around him, resting my head on his chest. He seemed taken back with surprise that I had gone to him.

His arms wrapped around my waist and he kissed the top of my head. "I love you" he said.

"I love you too, Louis" i said.

From the corner of my eye i could see Beau's upset expression. Though he was trying to force it back, hiding it with a fake smile.

Louis smiled down at me, leaning in to kiss me. I stopped him, lightly pushing away. He gave me a confused look, as well as Beau.

"I love you Louis" i said. "I always have and i always will. You'll always be in my heart"

The look on his face was if he knew this could be no good. "But... i'm with Beau now" i said walking over to Beau wrapping my arms around his waist.

I felt him release a breath as he stared at me in shock. Louis looked hurt. Devastated actually.

"What you said... about how you never realize what you have til it's gone is true. And i realized... i don't wanna lose Beau. I realized... i actually love him" i said smiling up at Beau.

He smiled down at me. His eyes were filled with happiness. "I really do love you Louis. I'm just not in love with you anymore."

Louis' expression was pained. And I felt bad for him. You could tell how broken he was feeling right now. Having someone that you love tell you that they don't want to be with you. But that's how i felt both times we broke up.

"I'm sorry we didn't work out. We just aren't meant to be together. But maybe we can start over. And be friends again" i said.

His fist were clenching and i clenching. He looked like he wanted to punch something.

He closed his eyes and let out a breath. He released his fists. "I'm sorry" he said. His eyes were red and glossy. Tears were threatening to fall from his eyes. "I know i fucked up. That's why i don't deserve you."

He stepped closer towards me and Beau. "But, Beau. Remember when you're holding her hand, you're holding my world" he said. "Please don't hurt her like i did"

Beau smiled warmly at him before Louis walked out of the room, leaving me and Beau alone. "I love you too" Beau smiled. I smiled as well before connecting our lips together. "But one question. Why?"

"Why what?" I asked.

"You and Louis had this history together. You were madly in love with him" he said.

"Well now i'm in love with you" i smiled. "And even though Louis' sorry for what he did. I can tell you care more for me than he does. Cause you actually care about my happiness. You would've been willing to let go of me if it meant i'd be happy."

He smiled once again then brought his lips back to mine. We started getting more into the kiss. "So do you wanna pick up where we left off" he winked.