T.D.Z (B3 of the Rebel Payne Series)

Chapter 21

~Avril's POV~


I guess you can say.... Things are weird. it's been about two days. so i've missed 2 rehearsals which is not good. I've just felt so depressed. i can't eat, or sleep. or do anything really.

Louis is leaving today. and i couldn't be more happy. it's honestly the hardest thing even being within the same city.

My twitter has been blowing up. most of them being negative saying we broke up cause i cheated.

I'm fucking tired of being the one blamed for something LOUIS did! they think they're little popstar is so perfect. HA!

I grabbed my laptop and sat up. i've been working on this for the freaky friday video.

It was a montage of all the moments Louis and I had shared with Wrecking ball playing in the back ground. the music at the end of the third verse was set to fade. so i can add in another video clip.

I went to my webcam and hit record. "hey guys. Avril here." i said in a bored tone. "i know. i must look like shit right now. i feel like shit too! i never thought i'd see the day where you rebs would see me cry."

"I just need to get something straight. i never even once was unfaithful to Louis! you wanna know the truth of our breakup!? he cheated on me! yeah. you heard me. your oh so perfect popstar, is the one who cheated on me. kay!" i said.

I was clearly a little bit ticked. but at the same time so depressed. tears were stinging my eyes and i was holding back tears. "I don't see why everyone always fucking blames me! yes! I hang out with guys! so what!? is it wrong for a guy and girl to be best friends!? for your fucking information, i was bullied! Okay! girls never accepted me! only guys ever did! I only have 3 girl friends. I was practically raised by guys so sorry if i prefer spending time with them!" I snapped. i took in a breath calming myself.

"Rebs. i love you. but right now. i'm just really broken. i don't feel like talking. or eating. or sleeping. or even breathing at this point." i wiped tears spilling from my eyes. "I know how bad you want a concert. so don't worry. i'll be there. but for all you haters. i hope you're fucking happy! me and Louis are done."

I sighed before i spoke once again. " for now. i won't be posting any freak friday videos. i'll post when i'm ready. but trust me. that won't be for a long long time." i said sniffling a bit. I then shut my laptop.


~Louis' POV~


"I'll miss you so much." harry said

"I'll miss you too." Alana said and he pulled her in for a kiss. i groaned. not in the mood to see lovey shit.

"Will you please hurry it up. we have a plane to catch!" I've been in a pretty bitter mood since the breakup.

"Well sorry. unlike you i love my girl." Harry said pulling Alana in for a hug. she smiled up at him and to leaned back in.

Harry and Alana have been on my case. Harry's mad, but not pissed like Dylan and David. or like Zayn and Liam will be. and Alana. she won't even look at me.

I rolled my eyes tapping my foot impatiently. we were already at the airport. and the plane was taking off in 5 minutes. "bye Alana. i love you" Harry said. finally they're done!

"I love you too Haz." she said an pecked his lips.

"I'll call, facetime, Skype you every day." he said.

"And i'll be waiting." she giggled. with one last hug, we got ready to bored the plane. Harry turned and waved at her before entering the passage that lead to the plane.

I wish Avril was here. so we'd hug and kiss. i haven't seen or heard anything from her in two days.

I don't think i've ever made a bigger mistake.


~Avril's POV~


I leaned against the brick wall outside the house as i exhaled a puff of smoke. it's been a while since I've last had one. and it feels good to have a cig again.

"Mind if i have one?" i heard David say. i handed the box and my blue lighter to him. "so how ya feeling?" he asked as he exhaled. he handed back my pack and lighter.

I shrugged not really knowing how to answer. "upset. broken. betrayed.... this list can go on." i mumbled placing the cig back between my lips.

"Trust me Av. you can do better." he said. i looked at him.

"Really. besides Marcus Louis was the best thing that has ever happened to me. i don't think i'm meant to have a relationship."

"Everyone has someone out there. Louis clearly isn't the one since this is your second breakup." he said. i sighed remembering our first one.

"Why do guys do this?" i mumbled to myself

"What?" Asked David.

"Find a girl. make her fall helplessly in love. make her think she has A chance. only to rip her heart out in the end." i said as tears pricked my eyes. "do you guys get pleasure from watching a girl break? from watching her suffer?" anger was building in my body. "because trust me. you won't be the one laughing when it's your daughter crying for the same damn reason."

By now i was pretty pissed. "Avril calm down-"

"Don't fucking tell me to calm down!" i snapped at him as tears rolled down my cheeks. i sighed placing the cigarette back in my mouth. "i'm going for a walk." i said leaving the front yard.

I threw my cig to the ground and crushed it beneath my feet. the crisp autumn air was blowing my hair constantly in my face.

I didn't care. i didn't care about anything right now. i didn't even know where i was going. i was just aimlessly walking around NYC. One of the biggest cities in the world.

It was peaceful though. it gave me time to think. why was i so stupid. i did everything i could to be with Louis. i even changed just to be with him! and here i am. broken hearted, and wandering around the streets.

I wish i could go back in time. back when i didn't know Louis. back when i didn't leave to go to London.

But then i never would've met Zayn. or made up with Liam. or become best friends with the Brooks.

Why can't for once, something good can happen without something bad messing it up. Why did i even fall for Louis? why couldn't i fall for someone else. like Brent. or Zayn. or even Beau. why Louis?

Was it some sort of punishment for me to get my heart ripped out. because if it was, i didn't learn shit. all i actually did learn was Louis' a major dick and he deserves to be stabbed, just so he could feel the pain he caused me.

If i had to wish for anything right now. it would be that i never fell for Louis.


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Hey guys! i wasn't even gonna update today because i have a shit load of homework. i'm so damn stressed. oh my god.

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