Some one who is fighting, and failing.

I'm someone who is in a fight,

physically and mentally.

I'm going through the things you might not think about,

yeah I know others get it harder I've been told,

but it's not like I can just stop it,

it takes time.

It's what they all say 'it only takes time'

to me it's a load of bullshit.

Just like when people say 'I'll never leave you'

do you get my drift?

Because I've lost people because of my problems I've started pushing people away from me,

I can get pissy and bitchy with people but only because I know in the end they'll leave me.

It's happened before with the people most important to me they've disappeared,

 and the consequence? Well lets just say my time again is coming to an end and they aren't there to help me anymore.

So when they ask why I push them away I don't say anything,

instead I think 'you'll only leave me in the end, there's no point'.

They don't get it,

they say I'm being stupid and ridicules,

but in the end they don't give a shit,

they never will really.

In my opinion you shouldn't tell anyone anything,

they'll only hurt you,

or worse leave you without a goodbye or even a reason,

that's what kills the most.

I would like to say a final good bye to those who left,

I'm so sorry I put shit on you and I hope your happy.