Some one who is fighting, and failing.

Every night

Not a lot of people know what it's like spending almost every night cry,

all because you said that they weren't good enough,

or you kicked a ball at them purposely.

Everything you do has an effect,

weather that's just feeling like shit,

or crying themselves to sleep.

In the end everything you do pills up,

and when things get too much for them,

that's when they start doing things to get rid of the pain.

Some talk it out,

others eat their problems,

and if they do what I do then they cut.

Why people make such a big fuss about cutting I'll never know,

I get that it's not the best but you either,

A) get called things for it, or

B) get shit loads of attention, attention you don't want.

They all say the same thing,

'it gets better, promise',

for me it's been nearly a year and I've only gotten worse,

what would you do?

For me it's breakdowns almost every night,

cutting a lot at a time,

not enough to die or bleed shit loads,

just enough to feel the pain and to see how hard I'm fight and failing.