Some one who is fighting, and failing.

The Monster

I'm changing into a monster, and people can tell.

I lie all the time, saying I'm fine when I'm breaking in half.

A friend knows how broken I am right now and is trying her best to fix me, but it's not working.

She is trying so hard and I love her but nothing will work until HE gets back and I fucking miss him like crazy.

Ever since HE left I've turned into the monster I am today, I now know that HE never loved me and I know he'll never talk to me again.

I'm just an unlovable piece of worthless shit, something everyone only hates.

Every 'I love you' everyone ever said to me was compete bullshit.

No matter how hard i try, no one will be able to love me, it's impossible.

I'm too far gone to be saved.

No one can do shit.

I push everyone away because i don't want to hurt them.

And I'm sorry if your someone I've pushed away but I just don't want to hurt you.

I'm sorry I'm a monster.