𝐝𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐝𝐨 → 𝐨𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐮 𝐝𝐚𝐳𝐚𝐢

EROS | 05

akutagawa sighs contently as he draws several patterns across dazai's bare chest, bandages all around but were loose from their previous activity that night. hair tousled and clothes delicately flung around the room in a sloppy manner.

"have you lost your touch?" akutagawa asks, slender fingers roaming around the mess of hair that sat upon dazai's head. the older of the two stifled yawn as the ravenette planted a soft kiss on the brunettes knuckles. despite the seemingly romantic gesture, their relationship was nowhere near such a thing. akutagawa liked giving dazai special attention. he couldn't quite fathom why, but his attraction to the older male seemed apparent hence the boundary they've placed in between good company.

"it's been a while since we last did something like this." dazai replies with a free hand rubbing his eye from sleep.

"i know, but you usually last more than three rounds. why is that?" akutagawa hums, playing with the white dyed tips of his hair.

"maybe i've been too focused on her."

"focused on [name]?"

"yeah," dazai moves to sit up from his position on the bed, raising both his hands to do a quick stretch before hearing a satisfied pop in his joints. "she acted really strange. kissing me like that out of nowhere."

"she probably only did that to shut your mouth. i presume you might've said something stupid."

"both of you are so mean," dazai groaned in slight frustration. he glanced behind him to see the ravenette situated comfortably in his bed, staring at him with an unreadable expression.

"do you plan on staying here for a while or do you have work?"

"i do, but an hour wouldn't hurt. you suck at making your own food."

"i do not."

"you barely make anything edible and always order fast food."

dazai didn't bother with a reply and flopped down on the bed with his head landing on akutagawa's lap.

"would you like me to make something for you?"

"yes, as long as it's not poisonous."

"very funny." akutagawa rolls his eyes as he moves from his position to head towards the bathroom to clean up before deciding on what he'd make for breakfast.

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dazai doesn't mind the cold and emptiness he sometimes feel whenever he wakes up alone on his bed after someone spends a night with him.

he's surely used to it by now, having shared a bed with numerous past lovers. he glanced to the clothes littered around his bedroom floor. akutagawa hasn't picked them up since the previous night, meaning he was downstairs wearing one of his robes that he had snuck out from his closet. he picked up the clothes and left them on a basket at the end of his bed. he'd have them cleaned later.

he knew he had to get to work after this, so he settled with black brief and a simple dress shirt for now. he can worry about his attire for when it was time for him to go.

he finds akutagawa prepping a simple breakfast consisted of waffles and yoghurt, accompanied with a fresh brew of coffee. "are you just going to stand there?" akutagawa says without even glancing at the brunette, too busy preparing himself some tea.

"come, sit. i didn't prepare this for nothing."

dazai chuckles, pulling a chair from beneath the dining table to have his breakfast.

"this looks and smells nice. i should hire you to become my personal chef."

"i'm up for it if you are." akutagawa takes a sip from his hot beverage. "i'm serious about this."

"great." dazai replies with a mouthful of waffles. he gulped it down before picking up his mug. "just get me a copy of your current contract. i'll renew it for you."

"you sound really hot when you get right up in business."  akutagawa sighs, teaspoon clinking with his cup.

"tell me, why didn't we get together?" dazai asks as he blew on his coffee.

"you and i both know it isn't going to last. we also aren't good for each other." akuatagawa chuckles lowly. "besides, we tried before didn't we? plus, it's obvious you got your eyes on someone else right now."

"and you submit yourself way too easily."

"that and eventually, you'll be bored of it. but fortunately for you, [name] is quite the challenge. no wonder you're so obsessed with her."

"i am not obsessed." dazai pouts at the male. "i just wanna help her out of her current situation. she's just so stubborn and won't accept any of my help! it's not like i want to get anything out of this from her. i just want her and her son to be happy."

"you know, if i were still in her kind of position back then, i would've accepted your offer already. regardless of what i felt towards you."

dazai's wince didn't go by unnoticed by the younger male. "ah, yeah. that. it's in the past now, so there's no trouble for you there."

"let me tell you something," akuagawa finishes his tea and sets it down.

"for a guy who somehow manages to get anyone he wants in bed, you're really dense."

"exsquueze me?"

"haven't you realized that you actually fell for her?"

"i wouldn't put it in that way."

akutagawa lets out a small snicker. "yeah, sure. keep telling yourself that until you can somehow get her to submit to what you want."

"you'll realize it by then."

"why do you say that?"

"i'm pretty sure my ears don't deceive me, since you outright moaned her name while we were going at it."

"i did?" dazai asks, puzzled and embarrassed with a slight flush on his face.

"yeah. but you were doing so well to keep me satisfied too." he picks up the dirty cup and places it by the kitchen sink.

"i wonder if you'll moan my name if you two ever go at it-"

"don't even go there."