My Heart's a Stereo

Five

After the third shot of Jack I feel a hand on my waist. I turn and my eyes meet Ryan's.

"Hey babe. Glad you could come." his whispers in my ear make a shiver go down my spine. "Here's some paint for you and the boys go have fun." He hands me 6 bottles of paint along with a small bag of pills.

"Ryan, I don't do x anymore." I try to give them back

"It's not, just take them. They'll loosen you up. I promise." I take the pills and go over to the boys.

"Here's some paint for you guys." They look around at the other people that were still clean. "They'll tell you when to paint everyone."

We all take a few more shots but now they're mixing liquors. Lauren, you know this isn't gonna end well. When we started dancing I started to lighten up. Then the ringer sounded and we all started to paint everyone. To see the smiles on everybody's faces was enough for me to know I really don't need drugs to have a good time.

"Liam, you got the paint in my hair." I can barely hear but I know it was Zayn

"It's supposed to go everywhere." I take a handful and shove it towards his face. He ducks and I get Niall instead. "Oops. my bad!"

"oh it's on now!" He's covered in paint and he comes and wraps his arms around me. "You look good in all this paint." He whispers in my ear.

"How drunk are you?"

"To drunk to care but not drunk enough you could take advantage." He reaches in my pocket and pulls out the pills Ryan gave me. "Let's take one."

"Niall, those will fuck with your mind." He looks like he doesn't care. "Let's get another shot and take them." The two of us head back to the bar

"two shots!" he yells. the bartender sits down two shots of a clear liquor.

We take one of the pills a piece and head back to the dance floor. The music and the people all become a blur. All the bodies were swaying with the beat. Mine and Niall's were swaying in the same rhythm. Everything was blurry and fuzzy. The last thing I remember before it all went dark was his lips pressed hard to mine.

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The next morning I wake up in an unfamiliar place with an all to familiar hangover headache. Fucking hell Lauren what the fuck did you do? Better question, who did you do? I look next to me and all I see is a head full of blond hair. Please be someone I know.He rolls over in his sleep and it's Niall.

"Morning." he says as he smiles

"Morning. Where are we?"

He looks around, "My room at the hotel. Do you remember how we got back?"

"Nope. the last thing I remember is..." the look both of us have is one of wonder, "did we have sex last night?"

"I don't think so but I don't remember anything." he climbs out of bed naked

"Uhh, I think we might have. We're both naked." I scramble to pull the blanket around me. Fuck Lauren, those damn pills did it again. I look over to him.

"What kind of pills did we take?"

"Ecstasy. I told you they would fuck with your mind." I look for any sign of my clothes. I don't even see his let alone mine.

"I should've listened to you at the beginning. No pills, even from you." he tries to laugh but quickly grabs his head. "this headache needs to go away."

"We're coming off an ecstasy high with a hangover. I'll be lucky if it's gone by the time my flight leaves tomorrow." Shit, I have to leave from here tomorrow.

"Do you wanna go see if anybody else is awake? it is almost noon" he asks after he finds some clothes.

"I'd love to but I can't seem I find my clothes" I gesture to the blanket wrapped around me. he tries to laugh again.

"Have some of mine." he hands me a pair of boxers and a tee shirt. Real attractive Lauren. "Damn, you make my clothes look good." maybe it is attractive.

"Whatever!" I roll my eyes at him and we walk to the kitchen. damn it's bright out here.

"Good afternoon lovebirds! did you two sleep well?" is liam always this loud or is that the hangover talking?

"How did we get home?" niall asks before I can speak.

"You don't remember? how wasted were you?" We look at each other and shrug

"We were pretty trashed. Ryan gave me some stuff. We were fucked most of the night." I reply not looking him in the eye.

"Oh, maybe you should've taken your own advice" no shit liam. I roll my eyes. "well about 2 this morning we couldn't find either of you until Louis went to the bar. The both of you were dancing on top of it" shit! I can't dance, "we tried getting you down but you weren't having it. I had to find your car keys." I bet that was fun digging through my bra for my keys, "why did you put them in your bra?"

"I didn't have pockets. it was there or leave them in my truck." I answer honestly.

"Ok. well, you decided it would be a good idea to just take your top off so you could get to them." Well that explains where my shirt went. "Sometime between leaving there and arriving here you took your pants off too. They must still be in the backseat if you're looking for them." we all hear the buzzing of a cell phone and look around. "Dianne's been calling you all morning." Shit! I forgot about her for a minute.

I reach for my phone, "hello?"

"Where the hell have you been? I've been calling you all God damn morning?!" She's loud and pissed.

"I got a little wasted last night and stayed with Niall. Even if I hadn't left my phone on the counter, I would've been to passed put to answer. Sorry." I say rubbing my temples.

"Sorry isn't gonna cut it this time Lauren. If you did something stupid, and with the boys, so help me I'm gon-"

"Gonna what? All I did was drink to much and pass out. I swear, nothing else happened." She would literally beat my ass if I told her I got one of them high and possibly had sex with him.

"Don't forget your flight leaves at noon tomorrow" with the she hangs up the phone.

I sit at the bar and contemplate if I actually want to go home. I miss my dogs and I miss the guys that work with me. Lauren, don't frown, they'll know something's wrong.

"What's wrong?" Niall asks and sits beside me."head hurt to bad?"

"I miss my dogs." That so not what I should be thinking about but I can't help it.

I look into those blue eyes soberly for the first time. I could see everything, all his insecurities, all his doubts. I know he could see mine too. Everything I had ever tried to keep from the world I know he could see them in that moment. His hand reaches up to my cheek and kisses me softly.

"I just wanted to see what that was like when I'm sober."

"Honey, you never have to apologize for kissing me. Sober or not." I look deep into his eyes and kiss him again.

"God, didn't you two get enough of that last night?" We pull apart to see Harry walk in the room. He looks like hell.

"Damn man, you look like shit." Niall says what I'm thinking. If looks could kill, the two of us would be dead

"Ha-ha! You know good and well that I was just as high as the both of you last night." We look at each other. "What were those pills you gave me?"

"I don't remember even seeing you after we started with the paint the first time. Are you sure it was me?"

"You didn't hand them to me. That guy who came to the studio the other day, Ryan I think, said you wanted me to take some. Yes, I remember what you said 'don't take any pills from anybody' but I was so drunk I didn't care. The next thing I remember was waking up to a naked girl in my bed."

I look towards his door and see Ryan's wife, Kate, coming into the kitchen. Our eyes lock and she turns beet red, turns and runs into the bathroom. Shit, every time I get involved with Ryan it seems like I ruin his life, and now I've ruined more than just his.