Lies

Part Five: Axel

Hi I'm Axel Taylor and I have two big secrets. One is that Alyson and I had sex and two is that I'm actually gay, pansexual to be more exact, and I've been hooking up with Ryan. My only reason for saying the first one is I think I may have gotten Alyson pregnant, we hooked up about four months back and we didn't use protection and the only reason we did is because I was trying to convince myself that I wasn't gay by sleeping with as many girls as possible and one of them happened to be Aly and I'm ashamed to say how it happened but here goes nothing. We were at a party, Aly and I, and we were drunk and I started messing around with her and then suddenly it happened we didn't have protection and I don't think she was on the pill. The only reason I'm concerned is because that baby is as much of my responsibility as it is hers, if she is pregnant. On to Ryan he's my everything I love him more than anything and everything. I feel bad about him and Bria because they have been dating since they were thirteen in eigth grade and we're seniors now, but my only explanation is that Ryan told me he was leaving her and that he didn't love her anymore at least no the way that she wanted him to. I know I should've left when he told me that they were still together. My only defense for that is that I love him that's just all. Don't get me wrong I'm not completely immoral I thought about leaving him because I felt so guilty about cheating with him on Bria but I love him too much to ever walk away and I just can't explain what that feels like unless you've ever felt it and if you haven't you'll know it when it happens. I need to find Alyson and talk to her and find out if she's pregnant or not because if she is that baby's my responsibility as much as her's and I intend to help in every way that I possibly can.