I d k where my life is headed I had to write this fucking twice cuz it got deleted.
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Zayn
Hearing those words escape Liam's mouth make my heart race at a thousand miles per second. I let out nervous laughter, trying to soothe my own nerves. I can feel Liam's eyes on me, they're focused, they're roaming and I wait because I don't know what to say as they come to the realisation.
"You slept with my brother?" His voice is calm, yet it breeds accusation and hurt. It makes tears pool at my eyes. I try saying something but nothing comes out, what can I even say to make this situation better? I don't know what to say. Liam's eyes are shooting daggers at me. I speak only when he gets up to leave.
"No Liam wait-"
"What more do you even have to say?" Liam snaps at me and I can't help but flinch. I step forward and then notice how bigger he is compared to me. His broad chest seems to be glaring at me, it makes me gulp.
"I-It was a mistake" I whisper, "I was drunk Liam, I didn't- I really like you, okay. I know-" I have to stop because I'm crying and its really hard to multitask when you're crying. Liam cups my face with both his hands and makes me look up into his eyes.
"Why are you crying?" He whispers softly. Really why was I crying? It's not as if I cheated on him? We barely know eachother. Yet I'm this pathetic.
"I-I don't know- I just- I really really like you, and I want to go out with you but I know I fucked up by sleeping with James" I hear him sigh and then take me into a tight embrace, I melt into his arms and my eyes start to wet his shirt, but I can't really control my tears. His hand is cupping the back of my head, and I want to stay like that forever, just Liam and I.
"I'm sorry" I whisper as one final attempt at making things right. Even though I know he'll leave. I'm about to pull away, but Liam makes me stay in the position, he moves his arms and places them on my waist. My heart skips a beat, what is he doing?
He slowly places his lips against mine, neither of us move. It's just an innocent peck. He pulls away, looks into my eyes. And then he kisses me again. This time I move my lips with his and wrap my arms around his neck pulling him closer. The kiss is fervent and full of lust. It's as if we're both hungry for eachother. Liam bites my lip and makes me moan, easily gaining entrance into my mouth. His tongue moves against mine and I love tasting him. He tastes like vanilla and mint. Liam is so rough, not that I mind but he's nothing like James. James kissed me softly and passionately as if I was delicate. But why am I thinking of James when I'm kissing Liam? What am I doing?
I pull away but not too far, our noses still touch, I just stop kissing him. None of us speaks, we're both trying to catch our breaths. I look into his eyes.
"I don't want to lose this, you- you're making me feel all these things" I speak in a soft voice, not wanting to ruin the moment. He smiles a little. His brown eyes are the most beautiful I've ever seen.
"I don't either, lets go on this date" I don't waste any time and smash our lips together again, I smiles into the kiss. I've never been this happy in my life.
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Three Weeks Later
I place the big book into the shelf, smiling as I thoughts drift to my man. Liam and I have been going strong for almost a month now. And I couldn't be happier. He's picking me up tonight for this big surprise date and he hasn't said a word about it to me. I like surprises but this is torture. I shake my head and move my trolly of books to the next shelf. My breath hitches because I wasn't expecting him to be standing there. My first instinct is to hide beside the shelf and make sure he doesn't see me. But then I start to really take the sight in.
James is wearing a tight black shirt with black jeans, his hair is standing up and judging by the look on his face, it seems like he's trying to find one specific book. I don't show myself. I just stare at his beautiful figure, how perfect his jawline is, how amazing his hair feels. I haven't seen him since- well since Liam and I started dating. It's good that we're avoiding eachother, because I don't think I'd ever to able to control myself around him.
It takes me back to our night of passion. The moans, his perfect tempo, the way we moved- I snap out of my thoughts when I see that he's caught me staring at him. My heart is pounding inside my chest, I know I should run. But I don't.
"Long time huh?" He says smiling at me, but his eyes tell another story.
"Yeah" I breathe out nervously. I don't know how to act around him. I never know.
"So how have you been?" Small talk, he's trying to make small talk. We do that for a while, he asks about Izumi, I ask about Loki. And then we just awkwardly smile at eachother and he's nodding.
"I should better get to work" I say and I walk forwards but he grips my wrist and yanks me towards him connecting his lips to mine. I don't know why I do it, but I close my eyes and I kiss him back with just as much force. I wrap my arms around his neck and he pushes me against the shelf. The thing I love about this liberary is that it's so gigantic, Harry and Niall sit at the other corner of where we are right now, so they have no idea whats going on here. And the shelfs are so enourmous not even a crane could move them.
James lets go of my lips and starts kissing my neck, my eyes shut close as I grip his hair and yank at it, grinding my hips against his crotch.
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"Jump" he whispers and I obey, he grips my thighs and we start making out again. Then I reach for his belt and undo it, our movements are so jerky. He takes my pants down a little but now all the way. I do the same for him, his member is now exposed and stands tall in all its glory. He doesn't waste any time and pushes inside of me, I smash my lips into his so that my screams are muffled. He stands there at first not moving, letting me adjust. I tug at his hair.
"Move, please." I beg and he obliges, mercilessly thrusting into me. I can feel my eyes roll up in pleasure and I want him closer to me. James buries his head in my neck as he follows a steady rhythm of ruining me. I feel tears pooling in my eyes, he's just so amazing. It doesn't take long for him to come and while he does,
"Cum" he orders and I'm putty in his hands, I cum untouched. He stays inside me for a while. We just stand there our lips touching, both of us in our high, breathing out vigorously from all the roughness. And then I smile and he smiles and he kisses me. The kiss has no lust, it's pure passion as our lips move against eachothers, I decided to put the rest of the worlds on hold for now.
