it was always you

13

i stopped you in the hallway again.

that's the only place i ever see you anymore.

you kept trying to walk away from me.

you've always been like that when you're upset.

i had to pin you against the lockers like some bully just to get you to pause for a second and listen to me.

i made a mistake, though.

i asked you what i did wrong.

even i know that was stupid.

i know what i did wrong.

i abandoned you,

and the rest of our friends.

for sasha. 

i didn't mean to.

you're still my best friend.

but this has been my biggest chance during high school to get the girl i like.

i thought all of you would understand.

it's not like i forgot about you.

i could never.

i just wanted to get sasha's attention.

you looked me dead in the eyes then.

i don't think i've ever seen you look so hurt.

all you said was,

"if sasha's attention is that important, then i want you to forget about me."

then you pushed me away,

and left.