Baby Girl - Joji x reader fanfic

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*Y/N POV*

'I really messed up.'

I was in the passenger seat next to Joji as he drove us to the park. He kept one hand on the wheel and the other hand on the gear. His eyes fixed on the rode in front, turning his head at times to get a glimpse of me. I kept my head down the whole ride and we didn't speak to each other. It was silent, he then moved his hand from the gear and placed it on my thigh. He began rubbing it back and forth, slowly and softly. I felt a warm feeling in his touch that made me feel safe with him. His hand then stopped and was still on my thigh.

"I don't want you to feel ashamed about what happened earlier. Everyone fucks up, sometimes people fuck up more than others." He said, his voice so soft. "I don't want our first date to be trashy." He said and gave me a small smile.

I looked up to him and blushed. "Date?" I asked.

"Well I thought it was a date since I'm taking a really beautiful girl out." He said and cocked his head to the left.

My face turned light pink and I smiled. His hand started rubbing my thigh again and I felt the same warm feeling.

We soon made it to the park and Joji parked his car. We walked side by side and made our way to some benches. The day was nice, the sun was out and the breeze felt fresh. He sat down and I sat a few inches away from him. I still didn't feel comfortable even if he told me that it was ok. I still felt embarrassed to sit next to him.

"Hey y/n, you okay?" He asked. I nodded my head in return staring at the ground.

"I want you to look at me and tell me you're okay. I can't trust that you're okay if I can't see your face." He then said. His voice sounded deeper but it was still soft.

I don't think I can look at him and tell him that I'm okay. I feel really bad and I still can't get over about what happened. I can't forget about something like that and I can't get over the fact that he saw me too. I wanted to cry so bad and forget everything and everyone. I was holding back the tears that I had since I left my house. I felt Joji's hand on my shoulder and I looked at him. I felt my eyes begin to water as he looked at me. I couldn't handle it and I started to cry. My cry turned into a sob and I put my hands in my face. My eyes were closed but tears kept flowing out.