Dream

Chapter 6

What had just happened?

Was I potentially stuck in the midst of dreams, escaping reality?

Or was the unthinkable really done?

All the questions flooded through my head, more and more appearing in the speed of lightning.

What if Ma saw me?

How would she act?

But I couldn't help wonder if I would ever get in the selection. I dare not say that my photo was absolutely gorgeous. I looked like a princess. Not only outside, but maybe inside.

Ma had always called me ugly, did she mean inside or outside?

Did I have inner beauty?

Is my heart as cold as the glares darted from my mother?

I couldn't help but wonder, if I was someone who has the slightest bit of inner beauty held within.

I took the pita bread and rolled it, inside holding the fillings. Just a plain colour of beige surrounding the inside of itself. The wrap did not look as good as I wished for. I guess it was reality. I need a slap from Ma to bring me back to reality, she would do a great job. I muffled a laugh at my own joke.

Coincidentally, Ma turned a corner, coming into the kitchen.

"Is lunch ready?" she asked impatiently.

"Yes Ma. Settle in with Gabriella." I responded with more patience.

I took the wraps and sliced them in halves, placing them carefully onto a plate. The wraps followed the outline of the circular plate, leaving an empty space in the middle. A tiny circle of blankness, looking empty. To fill up the emptiness, I took several parsley leaves from the herbs jar, and sprinkled them in the middle. The leaves were useless, just an ornament to the plainness of the beige coloured wraps. Sometimes, life needs a sparkle of uselessness. I smiled.

Ma walked in with Gabriella, silently. An awkward silent fell between the three of us.

I decided to break the silence, "How are you enjoying your lunch?" talking to no one in particular.

"No one asked for you to open up your mouth, Sara." she half-screamed.

She just said my name, which was strange, It was strangely inviting, despite the tone of her voice. She remembers my name, I thought I was a nobody to anybody. Shocked, I mumbled an apology and excused myself. Along, I took my dish and left. I am going to escape to the roof. My place to dream and think, my safe haven.

I couldn't decide wether I was happy or sad, I felt mixed emotions. However, I was certain for one emotion, shock. I also feel confused, I want all my questions answered. I want the nagging of questions in my mind to stop, I want to know the truth.

My stomach growled. I picked up my wrap, inspecting it. It didn't seem pleasing to me. I made it in a hurry because I was entering my Selection form this morning, resulting in being off schedule.I had to finish making lunch before Ma would come home, I didn't want to raise any suspicion.

Because of my hunger, I gave the wrap a try.

I bit into my wrap.

Satisfaction entered as another emotion. It tasted delicious. At first, I had judged it by its plainness, thinking it was ugly. But, I gave it a try.

I hope that everyone else may give me a try, I thought.