His Name Is Graser [Completed; Read By Graser]

Chapter 7

"I never feel right here. So what's the point?" I confess to Graser. We are sitting under the cloudy skies with cold winds riding down our path. Graser wanted to speak in private and this is private. I sit outside with a thin, green sweater freezing my butt off slowly but surely.

"Bayani just doesn't want us to be separated. He doesn't want our relationship to go down and sink like the Titanic. Because if it did, it'll be hard to be just friends." He explains to me. "I am truly sorry Jay."

"I'm freezing like a snow cone over here." My teeth start to shake rapidly. I hug myself and leave my face in my lap as I curl up like a ball.

"Here. Take this." I turn around to see Graser's pale hand holding an over sized, gray hoodie.

"Aren't you cold?" I ask.

"Just take it. I'm wearing a sweater." He insisted.

I stand up and take it hesitantly. I pull it over my shoulders. The hoodie can almost reach my knees. I lean back on the fence and hug myself, "Thank you Graser."

"No problem. It is December..." He chuckles. I giggle and see my cold laughter flowing in the air. I try to catch it but it disappears in my hands.

"Canada can you not?" I smile. I look back at the sky. Nothing but dark puffs and dull colors fill the emptiness of the sky. It makes me sad to see this. That the skies are ready to either rain down their tears or blow down a storm of anger. Sadness and anger is what fill the skies. You just don't know what it'll give you.

Graser asks, "What are you doing for the holidays? Since you know..."

I frown jokingly even if he can't see me, "Most likely just watch UHC and eat cookies."

"UHC huh? Ha ha! Same here most likely. But watching other point of views."

I gasp, "Did you die? GRASER!" I playfully yell. "Did you just spoil the season for me?"

He stays silent for a moment, "Maybe. I really don't know."

I laugh, "I was joking!" I laugh at myself. I look at my feet to see my pattern leggings and snow boots. I really don't like Uggs to be honest. They aren't really good for anything but for white girls in the fall season. My snow boots are awfully heavy, yet they are mean to be for work. I can't work in my garden in winter, that's the thing. I just like wearing them.

"It's really cold out here. Why are we here again?" He asks curiously.

I roll my eyes and smile lightly, "I don't remember! I don't care either. I just want hot chocolate and Shadow to cuddle with."

Graser laughs, "What about me? Might as well cuddle with your robot friend."

My smile fades away as my heart stops. What did he say?

It's a joke right?

Right!

He can't possibly love you after the way you treated his friends.

You mean the way they treated you?

My thoughts rush in my head and the argument grows loudly in silence. I realize it's been a minute and I get back to reality. Reality of flowers and an anonymous friend.

"Sorry I was trying to sneeze but it didn't come out." I make up my excuse.

He buys it, "Oh silly Jay."

"Silly me." I say. "Silly me and my feelings..." I sigh under my breath. I really don't like this whole I have a crush on my best friends who is in a serious relationship thing. It crawls under my skin at night and just taunts me of my mistakes. I can't simply woo Graser now. I don't want to become a gamer. The gamer life simply didn't choose me. So why must I choose it? I won't change who I am to be with him. I'll just make him fall in love with me.