The Sadness of Being In Love (Tadaomi Karasuma X Reader)(on hold+editing)

Chapter 11

I throw my bag onto my bed as I lay my head face first into my pillow, as a groan.

"As friends he says" I repeat his words "It will be fine I said" i thought "ITS NOT FINE" I yell at myself.

"Welp no stopping it now might as well get ready, for this 'Hang out' i guess you could call it, ints not a date so i dont know what else you could call it" I sigh once again

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"Um here karasuma " I say as I open the door to my apartment, his eyes widen at the sight of my outfit "is it to fancy, should I change" Suggest using my thumb to point back into the apartment, as i start to walk backwards about to go change. 

Karasuma grabs my Wrist, and pulls my forward, and turns his head, "You look fine" he says as his checks turn red. 

"Oh ok, are you ready, you lead the way" I say as he starts pulling me out the apartment.

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 "The park" I ask as i look around at the fountain, the huge grass area, the boardwalk. "yea I mean we hung out at the cafe last time I though this would be better" He smiles, and I frown at the word hang out.

But that sad moment was quickly interrupted by the beast inside my stomach telling to feed it, I look down and back up and gave him a nervous laugh.

"You hungry" he ask I hit him upside the head, "No my stomach, is telling me to not eat" I give him a wtf face

"You smart ass" he ruffles my hair.

"food food food" Say as we skip to  a food stand "food food food" I say while he orders the food, 

"FOOD FOOD FOOD" I semi yell as he starts paying "FOOD FOOD FOOD" I yell at the top of my lungs as he looks at me as we sit down.

"Here take it" he says as he hands it over to me, as I secretly Inhale the sandwich, Poor sandwich Kun.

"satisfied" he asks as he smiles, I shake my head really fast implying that im happy, "good, wanna go bike riding" he ask.

I turn my head really fast, we used to bike riding all the time, I look at him, as blush and look down "Yea sure" I smile as i keep my eyes at the floor.

"good" he says as he grabs my hand, and pulls me to rent a bike.

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I get on the bike and so does he we start peddling take in the sweet fresh air. we start laughing as I get close to him and the go farther from him

this went on messing with each other for a good 15 minutes when i was started to get tired, I stumbled off my bike while I laughed as I sat on the ground, the karasuma also feel down.

We both laugh as he sit next to each other, I was going to say something  so I looked at him, but at the same time it looked like he was about to say something, so he looked at me at the same time .

We starred at each other for 5 seconds, when I lend forward and kissed, him.

But i quickly pulled away and put my hand over my mouth, "Im so sorry" I say was i start getting up, he also gets up and looks at me.

I look down and start to cry "Im sorry I-I didn't mean to kiss you" I feel a tear rush down my face, he looks at me "I was really happy when you asked me out, but then said as a friend it broke my heart for the third time in my life, It felt like rejection, all over again" I cried.

"I thought I could put that feeling of rejection away, but no matter what You and that feeling keep coming back" I look down. 

"And it really hu-" I say as I was interrupted by arms pulling my arms forward and  a warm and soft pair of lips on mine, my eyes widen at the thought and action, that was happening right now 

I was quite startled by the sudden kiss, he lets go of me and leaves my lips, he looks me right in the eye "you dont have to explain, im the one who should be saying sorry" he smiles at me and pulls me into a hug.

"y/n I love you" he says muffled cause his head is in my hair,I  don't hug back but i cry, those words, those four words are the words i've been waiting for 20 years just 20 years i've been waiting. 

"Ive been waiting I love you too" I cry into his shoulder.